Your imperfection makes you flawless.

Moved on.

2011-10-09T22:26:00.001+08:00

Find me here -----------------> http://www.watchmef-ly.blogspot.com :)

Bring me down.

2011-07-10T17:52:00.003+08:00

I'm feeling so heartbroken right now. I just want to be alone.

From the beginning, you don't even know what I want.

I'll just get used to it.

I just want to be somewhere far away from here and be alone.

Do what I want, get what I want.

Lord, where are You. Why is this happening. Take away all my broken pieces. Fill me with happiness.

♥ ♥ ♥

2011-06-29T23:26:00.003+08:00

Hello readers! :) Okay, honestly, I really really wanted to post some pictures but blogger doesn't allow me to. :( Why? :( I'm just thinking maybe I should switch to other sites. Haha. Anyway, how was your week? I know it's just Wednesday and it's a bit early to say but I feel that this week, I've been pretty busy. Busy with school and cell group. However, I don't know why I kinda like the busyness :P I'm still able to cope well and I'm enjoying it. Okay, for a moment, I realised that it sounded a bit wrong; to like the busyness. HAHA.

By the way, I feel like cutting my hair. LOL. Should I? Hehe.

Cause I had a bad day.

2011-06-26T14:50:00.000+08:00

I'm feeling so sad now. Just had a tiff with my mum. It's like I didn't even do anything wrong, why must she quarrel with me. If you don't even know what I've done, then please don't accuse me. I felt so terrible now. I don't need anyone to be beside me, I don't need anyone to talk to cause I just want to be alone.

I exalt Thee.

2011-06-18T01:16:00.000+08:00

I need a change.

And I do not know why I just cannot upload pictures on blogger now :(

Droplets.

2011-06-17T00:42:00.000+08:00

Went for suntan today. And I fell in love with the sun. :) Met up with Atwell. Like finally. The last time I saw her was like in January. Time flies like nobody's business. That lady is getting prettier and prettier each time I see her. Haha.

Going to enjoy the sun again later. :) Ciaoz!

I wish I can be taller, slimmer and darker.

2011-06-15T01:42:00.001+08:00

I'm heading to the beach tomorrow! To suntan, to enjoy the sun. Woooooooo, I'm so excited! :)

Draw me closer to You. Only You.

2011-06-10T00:53:00.003+08:00

The enemy has been defeated. And death couldn't hold You down.
We're gonna lift our voice in victory, we're gonna make Your praises loud.
Shout unto God with a voice of triumph, shout unto God with a voice of praise, shout unto God with a voice of triumph. We lift Your name up, we lift Your name up.

Hey guys! I just wanna let you guys know that I've done a new cover! It's Adele- Someone Like You. :) Just click this link :) ---------> http://www.youtube.com/user/Yourromanceeeeee

I also wanna let you guys know that I'm doing a new cover VERY SOON. And I really mean very soon. HAHA. It's like next week? So please stay tune guys! And please please please, do subscribe to my channel! That will really mean A LOT to me! :) Thank you guys for all of your support! :)

Jianfeng's wedding is coming soon. I'm so excited :)

And thank you for everything. :)

It's too late for you and your white horse, to come around.

2011-06-05T20:30:00.006+08:00

Hello peeps! I know and I know I've not been blogging for years. Cause I'm lazy. HAHA. Anyway, holidays are finally here! Honestly, I wasn't really looking forward to the holidays. Haha, I've no idea why. Maybe school is too fun! Hahahhahahahaa. But, finally I can catch up with my sleep. I've been feeling so sleepy and tired nowadays. Really lack of sleep. Okk, that's not my main point. Haha. My main point is, mid-term exam is finally over!! And I'm very happy with my results! Heh. Really thank God for that. :) Managed to get A1 for both physics and chemistry, A2 for maths and a B3 for english.

I could still remember that night, where God showed me a verse in the bible; Jeremiah 33:3.

Call to Me, and I will answer you, and show you great and mighty things, which you do not know.

And this verse has been in my mind every now and then. So I believe that as long as I do my best, God will do the rest. True enough, God really keep His promises. How great is our God. :)

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. :)

I'll try to keep my blog alive. Haha, ciaoz.

God doesn't make mistakes, so trust that when someone ends up in your past, they are there for a reason.

2011-05-17T01:05:00.003+08:00

I really want to thank God for a very important person in my life. This particular person has seen me through my worst and the best times in my life. This person is my pillar of strength and he is always there for me whenever I need him by my side. This person is none other than my brother. :) Honestly, I can never imagine my life without him. Someone who I grew up and play with since I was a kid. Though we had been through lots of thick and thin together, said lots of hurtful words towards each other when we quarreled or fight in the past, we always forgive each other. The best thing of this relationship is that we're still close with each other. We can talk almost everything together under the sun, stay up late at night and do the most silliest thing a brother and sister can do. I just enjoyed all times we spent together talking about our childhood memories; those silly games we played and all those funny and precious moments together.

As times flies, when we grew older, we get more busy and we spent lesser time together. I'm really proud of you, brother. :) You became more sensible and responsible and I'm very glad. I really pray that 10 years down the road, our relationship will be even better. Thanks for cheering me up whenever I'm down. Thanks for those listening ears whenever I need them. Thanks for all the silly things you've done or said whenever I need some laughing pills. Thanks for tolerating my nonsense at home. :) You're the best brother in the world. :)

A song in your heart.

2011-05-12T01:59:00.005+08:00

This emptiness feeling overwhelmed your heart and soul.

And she was so heartbroken and she wanted to be alone.

She was so heartbroken and hurt. No one knows how much that hurt.

No one can ever understand the pain she's going through.

And all she could do is to cry herself to sleep.

All these years, people around her had changed so much that she couldn't recognise them anymore.

Just wondering how long you'll wait.

It's just a lie.

Don't tell me that you'll wait for me because I really don't believe it.

Cause as time flies past,

people change.

We change.

And I'm just not worth your time.

Falling stars.

2011-04-29T01:38:00.004+08:00

Hello beautiful people :) Just realised that it has been years since I last did a proper blog post. How was your Easter? Haha, this is my second year celebrating Easter and I really enjoyed it. What a joy to be able to celebrate the real meaning of Easter. :) I'm busy with my studies this few weeks. Mid-year exams are coming nearer. Just gotten our Mid-year exam timetable. Exams are starting on the second week of May and April flies so fast like nobody's business!

I fell sick again last week. I really have no idea why I kept on falling ill this year. Perhaps I didn't have enough sleep and didn't drink enough water. But I was really very touched by my friends in school and in church! When they know that I fell sick again, they were so concerned about me; asking if I'm okay or not etc. So touched! I felt that I'm loved. HAHA. Thank God for all these lovely people. :)

This week has been a terrible week for me. All thanks to that stupid crooked wisdom tooth. If you've been following me on Twitter, you will have realised that I've been complaining about that stupid tooth. Lol! (even my Maths teacher- Miss Jas, knew about it! She went like "so Huiwen, are you still taking painkillers late at night?" in Maths class! LOL!) That toothache was so bad that I woke up every night at like 3am because of the pain. And finally, I'm gonna remove it later at 1pm. Yes, they call it an op. Lol. Operation :( Honestly, I'm scared. Super duper okay! :( And if you're reading this now, please please please pray for me. :( I'm afraid that I might die or something. Lol. Kkkkkkk, I'm too paranoid alr!

Before I end this post, I've one announcement to make! I've officially created a new Youtube account and I will be doing covers. Haha! Here is my Youtube link-

http://www.youtube.com/user/Yourromanceeeeee

Please do support me by subscribing to my Youtube channel and liking those videos posted. It really mean a lot to me! I will try to do as much covers as possible! So thank you so much! :)
Love you guys! :)

Things that have been left unsaid.

2011-04-13T01:21:00.002+08:00

Just wondering how long can this last.

Everything is fine. I'm contented with my life right now. I've such wonderful family members, awesome relationship with my friends and I've such a great and loving God with me. And all these are priceless. I enjoy going to school. :) But lately, I'm pretty stressed up. And I just don't know why. Physics is the problem again. I understand the concept but when I'm about to attempt the questions.. GG.com. LOL.

Mid-term exams are coming very very soon. In May. Gosh. Maths test next week. Really need to buck up.

Heading to school now! Byebye. :)

A dream that will stay in my heart, till my very last breath.

2011-04-04T20:24:00.004+08:00

This is for you. Everything happened so quickly last night, just like a blink of an eye.

Grandpa, you finally came to my dreams. I've been waiting for this day for a very long time already. When my brother told me that he dreamt of you a few months back, I was actually jealous. HAHA. I was like thinking why ah gong didn't appear in my dreams. Lol! And finally last night, you did. I'll always remember every bits and pieces of the dream. It felt so real.

I dreamed that I was out with some of my friends in a shopping center. That place was so beautiful. And suddenly, one of my friends told me that you've come back from somewhere (which I do not know where) and he/she told me that you've bought me something. So that friend of mine passed me a can of pineapple biscuits? And I was told that you bought it from somewhere faraway at the roadside and that can of biscuits was very rare and expensive.

The minute I saw that can of pineapple biscuits, I started crying and I ran into your arms the moment I saw you. I hugged you so tightly and I began crying and crying non-stop like a child who found her parents after getting lost in the shopping mall. And I kept on saying that I love you, I love you, I love you. At that moment, you said nothing but you smiled at me. You hugged me back. And there's somebody who said "Your ah gong loves you alot. He misses you alot." And I cried and cried and cried.

And when somebody told me that you're going back, I cried even harder. I didn't bear to let you leave me. And I was wanted to ask you this question- did you really received Christ and are you in Heaven. When I was about to ask you, I opened my eyes and I was back in reality.

And as I woke up, I cried and cried non-stop. That was when I realised both my heart and soul misses you so much.

Tell me why.

2011-04-02T02:39:00.002+08:00

Tell me why do I feel this way?

I really hate this 'unsure' feeling.

Tell me why did my heart skipped a beat.

Why?

It shouldn't be this way right.

We are just friends right?

I'm just thinking too much right?

Yeah, we're friends. We can even be best friends.

And yeah, I'm just thinking too much.

Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead.

2011-04-01T16:22:00.006+08:00

Hello hello hello hello beautiful readers! :) How's your week? Well, I'm having my holidays for this entire week. Like relax only. Haha. But I was so sick on Saturday, once I got home from service. I was running a fever with a combination with cough and flu. :( Thank God I felt so much better the next day. :)

On Tuesday, I met up with my lovely bitches! Ohmygosh, I miss them so super duper much! So we had lunch together @Pizzahut then we headed to town for a movie. We watched Sucker Punch. Love that movie so much. :) After that headed to Fat Boy's for dinner. Time flies so fast when I'm with them! Love them so much! Let's meet up soon again okay @Ronald, @Isabella and @heni. :)

On Wednesday, suppose to meet up with @wanfong to study/read at Starbucks. But I don't know how come I end up meeting @jason first. Lol. So studied at ion starbucks with him then @wanfong joined in and then @gerald also came. HAHA. Stayed there till 6 plus? Then headed home.

And since I'm getting better, I shall work on my cover. Muahahahahahahaha. :P Oh, and there's something that I wanna talk about. Last week, I was told that my grandpa's brain is dead. And then just on Wednesday, my mum told me that my grandma anyhow say? In short, my grandpa isn't brain dead laaaaaaaaaaaaaa. I really thanked God for this. It really freaked me out. I'm really very thankful and with God, miracles will happen! :) God is good, all the time and all the time, God is good!! :)

One last thing. I'm kinda sad about this. My mum don't allow me to be baptise till I turn 21. Okay, one good thing about this is that they allow me to be baptise (which I thank God for) but what I really want, is to be baptise before I turn 21. :( But nothing is impossible. I'm gonna continue to pray that miracle can happen. So do say a short prayer for me too. :) Thank you. :)

I love my God! ♥

Be grateful.

2011-03-26T01:49:00.005+08:00

As I'm going through this period of time, I really want to thank those who were there for me. Those who stood there for me, encouraged me, prayed for me. I really appreciate it and I thanked God for you. Without your encouragements, love, strength and prayers, I really do not know how am I going to go through this. And please, don't worry about me, I'm fine. :)

School has been fine so far. Last Tuesday, I even went jamming with some of my new classmates after school! Fun fun fun (Rebecca Black's song :P) Managed to know them even better and it was really awesome. Thank God for such wonderful people. :)

Holidays are here alr! Time to take a short break. :)

Grandpa, please be strong. The whole family is here to support you. Everyone of us is praying for you. Thanks for loving and doting me even though our relationship is not close. I just wanna let you know that I really love you and it really hurts to see you like that. Stay strong and don't worry too much. Even if your time is really up, just let go of everything and go in peace.

And Grand-dad, I'm so glad that you managed to go in peace. Heaven is a very beautiful place isn't it? :) Just want to let you know that no matter what happens, you'll always be living in my heart. I love you too. Please watch over Grandpa. :)

Name above all names.

2011-03-17T00:34:00.005+08:00

As you breathe right now, another person takes his last. So stop complaining, but rather live your life with what you got.

Hello readers! Okay, the happy me is back again! muahahahahhahaah! Time really flies fast, tomorrow is gonna be Thursday, then Friday will come and then followed by Saturday! I'm really excited about Saturday because we're gonna have our very first service in Suntec! :D Praise the Lord!

This week has been quite fruitful. I scored a B3 for my Physics test and A2 for my Maths test. So happy! But I'm a bit upset with my Maths results because I expect myself to get 30/30. I made careless mistakes again! And today, I had both Maths and Physics major test! And it's like difficult. Lol, as long as I'm able to pass, I'm satisfied alr! At least I tried my best!! Today after school, headed to Tiong Bahru and study at Coffee Bean while waiting for Cas to knock off. Had 18 Chefs with her! Finally I got to meet her! :D I really had a great time with her. ;)

Anyway, I'm proud of my God. I enjoy praising Him. I mean you don't have any rights to stop me or to control me. If you're unhappy about me, then you can just click 'unfollow' on Twitter. :) There's a reason why they have this unfollow icon. :) And I didn't force you to follow me. It's your choice.

School ends at 6pm tomorrow!! Sigh.

That I loved you more than you'll ever know.

2011-03-14T17:45:00.000+08:00

My favourite song. :)

I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as he turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like it was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

After all this why
Would you ever wanna leave it
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you will ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

The other side of down.

2011-03-13T02:08:00.002+08:00

Saw something very encouraging.

"Behind all those clouds is always a blue sky. Have faith and pray! Let God's promises shine on your problems"

And the Lord reminded me something. He reminded me that no matter what happens, I'm loved by Him. How can I ever thank Him for all the things He had done for me?

You're so beautiful to me.

2011-03-12T23:45:00.006+08:00

Hello my faithful readers. Haha! I just have the urge to blog tonight. As day passes by, I just feel that I'm getting busier and busier with school work. Next week, I'm gonna have my major test. Something like common test lah. Really hope that I'll be able to do well, so that I can make my parents happy and also to motivate myself to do even better. :)

Actually, there're two things that has been bothering me. I feel that I'm kinda emotional nowadays but I'm still happy. I just don't like the 'emotional feeling'. The first problem that has been bothering me is the new friendship I'm having now in school. I haven't really talk to anyone about this yet. It's like I feel neglected from the new group of friends I've made. I feel that I'm not important and I don't really feel the sense of belonging. It just make me feel like I'm in primary school, whereby there will always be someone in the group wanting to snatch your friends away. It's just that kind of feeling lah. Maybe it's just me being sensitive about it. I mean I'm very sensitive to friendship issues. And I'm trying to tolerate it. I do not know how long I will able to tolerate this matter. And that is also another reason why I'm trying to make other new friends from my class. I mean I can't possibly do things that is making me to be unhappy right. And I like to make new friends because I get to meet different kinds of people. I agree that sometimes, it's better to step out of your comfort zone and take a step out and talk to other people. Though I do not know whether am I doing the right thing or not, I just pray that things will change for the better. Despite this situation I'm in right now in school, I still enjoy schooling. :)

Btw, I'm just posting what I'm really feeling now. I just need a place to pour out everything.

The second thing that has been bothering me is Grandpa. For those who know me, you'll know that my grandpa passed away last year. Grandpa is the first person who really left my side. I really miss him dearly. Every single time when I thought of him, just make me teared. And everytime, I always try very hard not to think of Grandpa but I just can't. Everytime when I'm walking on the streets, I'll see a grandfather picking up his grandchildren and they're walking home happily together. I've never had this chance to do this with my grandfather. I love him so much. But I didn't even have the chance to tell how much I love him and I didn't even have the last chance to see him for the very last time. Last week, there was a funeral at my void deck and each time I walked past the funeral, it just reminds me of Grandpa.

Maybe I should sleep after taking a warm shower and I'll be better tomorrow.

Abesence makes the heart fonder.

2011-03-08T22:31:00.007+08:00

Let Your freedom arise. Let Your praises and glory go higher. And let Your will be done.

Hello people! So sorry that I've not been posting a proper post for a very long time because I'm pretty busy lately with school and every time I want to blog, I'm just lazy and I procrastinate. HAHA. Anyway, just a quick update. The happy me is backkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk. :) A lot of things had happened in just the past two weeks. Tough times are finally over, praise the Lord. And honestly, I felt that as I'm going through all the tough times, I had really drawn even closer to God. :) And He has been blessing me every single day.

For the past few weeks, my mum hasn't been feeling well again. It's like a 'on and off' kinda thing. Hope that she'll feel better. Oh, and school is just awesome. Managed to meet new friends and I was also able to manage my school work even though I've been feeling very tired and a bit restless nowadays. But still, nothing can be compared to those times in CCSS. Miss each and every single person from 4EA. :( It's like the best people I've ever met in my life. I really miss 4EA. :( And I miss Mrs Siva's lessons!!

Not forgetting that tomorrow is my sayang's birthday. :) Awww.. I miss her so badly!!

Okay, I need to sleep now! Having Physics test tomorrow! Wish me luck! :)

Time keeps lingering on.

2011-02-27T18:10:00.005+08:00

There's a song lyrics that says "what it hurts the most, is being so close."

Now, I feel that what it really hurts the most, was to let someone down.

What it hurts the most, was not being able to be there for someone.

What it hurts the most, was that that someone was always there when you need them yet when that someone really truly needed someone to be there, you were not there and were not able to be there.

I'm truly disappointed at myself for not being wise, for not being to make the right decisions.

Guess it won't change a thing.

It all felt terrible.

Trust, friends. What's are these words all about?

I'm just gonna turn my eyes to God.

It changed me. It'll never be the same anymore.

The first time I teared so much. Utterly disappointed. Myself.

All I need is You.

2011-02-24T00:09:00.006+08:00

Actually, I wanted to blog about my first few days of school cause I was pretty happy when I got back home until something actually happens. Something more personal lah. And I really really feel like talking to someone who I can really trust. Like a really h2h chat. But it seems like...

The only person I can really think of right now, is God. Like what Wanfong tweeted, she said "Knowing is one thing, doing is another thing. Even though I may fail but He never will." Any man can do all wicked things or betray you or whatever, but the Almighty God will never do any of these but to love you unconditionally.

Sorry for not letting you know and please understand that there's a reason for it. Sorry to let you down. And I know sorry can't change anything.

Lord, I'm coming right now.

All these just shattered on the floor like a piece of glass being smashed into bits of pieces. And you just don't know how much it terribly hurt. It's more than how much you can imagine.

Gotta live like we're dying.

2011-02-20T14:40:00.003+08:00

Time flies so fast. At a blink of an eye, this coming Tuesday will be Grandpa's one year death anniversary.

Just now my brother told me that he dreamt of Grandpa.

Grandpa and my brother were walking at a park.

Then they entered to a restaurant for a meal in the park.

Grandpa always love to eat.

Grandpa said nothing to my brother but he just smiled.

He must be so happy in Heaven.

I miss you very much, Ah Gong.

The day after tomorrow.

2011-02-18T14:31:00.005+08:00

I've nothing much to blog but I just have the urge to blog.

Today is Friday. It doesn't makes me feel like a Friday.

It felt more like a Monday to me.

I don't know why the moment I woke up, I just feel a bit..

I wouldn't use the word down but it just feel empty.

Nothing happened. There wasn't any heartache. I didn't cry the previous night either.

The feeling just came to me like that.

Maybe it's just me missing Grandpa.

Sometimes, it is difficult to find a correct word to describe how you feel.

I just pray that this feeling can go far away from me.

Yes, maybe all I need to do now, is just to pray.

Nonetheless, I'm contented with what I am and what I have now.

Cell group meeting later!

And eeeeeeeeeeeew! I've one pimple on my leg! :(

All I can say is I was enchanted to meet you.

2011-02-15T09:11:00.004+08:00

This is one of my favourite song. Just love the lyrics and all. Taylor wrote this song for Owl City. Now I'm dedicating this song to you.

There I was again tonight forcing laughter, faking smiles

Same old tired, lonely place

Walls of insincerity

Shifiting eyes and vancancy vanished when I saw your face

All I can say is it was enchanting to meet you

Your eyes whispered "have we met?"

Across the room your silhouette starts to make it's way to me

The playful conversation starts

Counter all your quick remarks like passing notes in secrecy

And it was enchanting to meet you

All I can say is I was enchanted to meet you

This night is sparkling, don't you let it go

I'm wonderstruck, blushing all the way home

I'll spend forever wondering if you knew

I was enchanted to meet you

The lingering question kept me up

2am, who do you love?

I wonder till I'm wide awake

Now I'm pacing back and forth, wishing you were at my door

I'd open up and you would say,

It was enchanted to meet you

All I know is I was enchanted to meet you

This night is sparkling, don't you let it go

I'm wonderstruck, blushing all the way home

I'll spend forever wondering if you knew

This night is flawless, don't you let it go

I'm wonderstruck, dancing around all alone

I'll spend forever wondering if you knew

I was enchanted to meet you

This is me praying that this was the very first page

Not where the story line ends

My thoughts will echo your name until I see you again

These are the words I held back as I was leaving too soon

I was enchanted to meet you

Please don't be in love with someone else

Please don't have somebody waiting on you

Please don't be in love with someone else

Please don't have somebody waiting on you

This night is sparkling, don't you let it go

I'm wonderstruck, blushing all the way home

I'll spend forever wondering if you knew

This night is flawless, don't you let it go

I'm wonderstruck, dancing around all alone

I'll spend forever wondering if you knew

I was enchanted to meet you

Please don't be in love with someone else

Please don't have somebody waiting on you

All that I know is I don't know , how to be something you miss.

2011-02-11T15:20:00.003+08:00

Love your enemies, do good to those who hate you, bless those who curse you, pray for those who mistreat you. - Luke 6:27-28.

Hellohello people! I don't know why I just this urge to blog today! For the past two days, I've been going out with Heni! And I've been spending money for this past two days! Lol! No good! I really need to save up so that I've some money to clear my 'debts' and at least have some savings. I regretted for not working. :( Ever since we've gotten our O-levels result, it has been at least a month. I should have find a part-time job, at least earn a bit of money? Sigh. Anyway, what has been done, it's already done! School is starting soon, in like 10 more days! (I've been counting down) Lol. I'm pretty excited but a bit nervous at the same time. Wonder how would my new classmates be like etc. I pray that my new classmates will be good people. I pray that there won't be any bad influence for me! I really want to do well this year! I've been praying about it. And I'm sure God will be there for me!

Tomorrow, is a big day for me. Tomorrow; the 12 of February marks the first year of me being a Christian. Jesus will come to you at the most unexpected times, in the most unexpected ways and through the most unexpected people. And it's very very true. I was brought to church by someone who I lost contact with. I went down for the altar call through a very very unexpected way. (You'll know the reason why I say this if you know how I got saved. HAHA) These are the unexpected times, unexpected ways and unexpected people. I really feel the difference of my lives with God and without God. I'm happier now. I really think that I'm happier. God has really touched my heart in different ways. He has been there for me. I really do not know what am I today without Him.

As I turn one year in Christ, I really pray that I'll be able to do great things in the name of Jesus. I pray that I'll be able to glorify Him in His kingdom. I pray that I'll be able to lift His name even higher. I pray that I'll be able to have the kind of love He has for people. I pray that I'll be able to influence people in a good way. I pray that the words that comes out of my mouth, will bring love and grace. I pray that as I walk with God, I'll be able to draw closer to Him in every step I take. I pray that God will make use of me, to touch into people's lives. I pray that His words will be able to strengthen my faith. I pray all these in the name of Jesus. Amen.

"Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you."

-Matt 7:7.

I can't breathe without you but I have to.

2011-02-09T22:51:00.005+08:00

Hello beautiful people! How's life? I'm sure a lot of you enjoyed your lunar new year holidays! To me, I think it's this lunar new year has created a lot of opportunities for me to spend more quality time with my family, especially Mummy and Daddy! Since this year we're not able to celebrate lunar new year, I spent almost 90% of my time with my family. On new year eve (Wednesday), we had our reunion dinner at my Grandpa's place without his presence. Yeah, the house will never ever be the same without Grandpa. :( Anyway, I love reunion dinners since I was young. I just love the atmosphere and I just love the food!

On the first year of lunar new year (Thursday), went to the airport. Mummy and Daddy finally had their first cup of Starbucks! Super cute!

Thanks daddy for that Starbucks treat!

The next following day (Friday), we went to Botanic Garden. Had such an awesome day with mummy and daddy! We also had our dinner at a very very high class restaurant located at the Ginger Garden. The food and service there is just fabulous! The price of their food is also very fabulous! Lol. We spent like more than $300 for a meal there! *drops jaw* But once in a blue moon, should be fine. :) After we had our dinner, it was so late and dark at the garden. So dark that you could see those shinning stars in the sky. Such a beautiful night. :) Too bad more camera couldn't capture that beautiful sky. :(

On Saturday, per normal- headed to the House of God! What an awesome service! And, I learned how to play mahjong! Won my first round! :D On Sunday, met up with Bella and headed to Mrs Minjoot's place. Stayed there till 5 plus. And I rushed to town to meet Geraldine for movie. Watched Homecoming. It's such a funny movie yet heartwarming show. Think everyone should catch it! After the movie, we went to find Rena and her friends. Had lots of laughter. And one of Rena's friend drove us home! I love car rides with friends! So fun! :D

Yesterday, headed to Jackson's place for dinner. At first I thought it was 7pm. So I met up with Fion at 6 plus. While waiting for the bus, I read the text, then I realised it was 5pm. I was like omg!! Lol, thank God Jackson don't mind. So stayed at his place till 9 plus. Then went to Bedok Point to meet Rena and co. Lots of fun and laughters! Played mahjong at the void deck! Lol! Like illegal gathering like that. HAHA. Played 3 rounds I think? And I lost all 3 rounds. :( Need more practice!

Today, my mum woke me up at 10am to accompany her to the market. (And I've been lacking of sleep for almost the whole one week) No choice but to get myself off the bed. Told her alot of things and I felt so good after telling her! I love my mummy! :D I went out with Heni Twin after that! Like ohmygosh, I spent almost half of my ang bao money. :( Bought 4 books! 3 of them were bought from Borders! It's like 3 for the 2! Yay! Bought a pair of flats from Cotton On! And I finally bought my Taylor Swift's album! I'm so happy! But I'm almost broke! Once school starts, I'm really gonna save up! Meeting her tomorrow again to accompany her to go somewhere! Hope that we won't be going shopping again! Haha!

And and, Taylor Swift's concert is like freaking today. And I'm not thereeeeeeeeeeeeee! :( Kill me! :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :(

I think I'm really really very blessed this time. Thanks to God's love, grace and mercy. What a great God we serve isn't it? :) I love my Heavenly Father! Alright, I'm so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so tired! :( Shall blog soon again! Night night! :D

Cause I go back to December all the time.

2011-02-01T02:09:00.002+08:00

Indeed time flies like nobody's business. In a blink of an eye, it's February already. To be honest, I really really can't wait for February to come! Because school's starting soon! :D I'm really very excited and I'm looking forward. So what have I been doing? I've been enjoying the cold, fizzy weather in Singapore! Just love the cold breeze and the rain! I don't mind if the weather decides to continue like that for the entire year! ;) Also, I've been reading Nora Roberts' novels. I just simply love her novels, enjoying every single book. Hope to read more of her books. If you love to read romance, Nora Roberts' novels will be the best choice! And and, I've been doing Maths! Can you believe it? Haha. After starting doing Maths these past few days, I actually realised that I do love Maths. Errrmmm.. Perhaps when I can solve them. Lol!

Before I head to bed, just want to say millions of thanks to those who had been praying for my mum although I mentioned it on my previous blog entry. I really really appreciate every single prayer! My mum is getting better now. :) Lunar new year is coming very very soon. :) I really hope that I can catch Homecoming and It's a Great Great World with my family! Can't remember when was the last time we catch a movie together. :)

Dear Grandpa,

How have you been doing in Heaven? I'm sure it's a beautiful place. :) This coming 22nd of this month will mark the first year you left us. I just want to let you know that I really miss you. Pretty badly you know? But I know there's nothing I can do. Just wanna let you know that no matter what, you'll still be in my heart. Lots of love and misses.

God is love!

2011-01-27T00:10:00.003+08:00

Hello readers! How's your week? Well, my week isn't a good one. I fell sick with a slight cough and flu. Lots of downs too. Going through some 'problems' in the family. Thank God for Twitter. Haha! Really thank God for those people who encouraged me and prayed for me. Great thanks for those who prayed for my mum. Really appreciate it. :)

Last week, I managed to have a great fellowship with @Wanfong, @Geraldine and @Rena! Great thanks to @wanfong and @geraldine for accompanying me to school! :) I also managed to have a great cgm last Friday! We all talked about our new year resolutions for 2011. I actually felt motivated and inspired after hearing and sharing our resolutions! :)

I can't wait to see my precious mama; @rena. :( Miss her alot! ♥ And Saturday is coming soon! Wheeeee!

Psalm 86:11-12

Teach me Your way, O Lord,

I will walk in Your truth;

Unite my heart to fear Your name.

I will praise You, O Lord my God, with all my heart,

And I will glorify Your name forevermore.

Don't let me go.

2011-01-14T01:37:00.009+08:00

Always remember that after a heavy rain comes a beautiful rainbow.
Intense atmosphere. Everyone is anxious about their results. So am I. I teared; those tears of joy. I'm so proud of 2010's graduating students. We did so well for this national exam. I'm really proud of my school. Yes, we did well as a whole cohort.

2.30pm. The Vice Principal of the new Bedok Town Secondary School was still making his speech. The clock struck 2.40pm. Our names were called one by one. Finally my name was called. The moment that I've been waiting. I kept praying. I kept telling myself that no matter what, I know I did my best. I looked at that piece of paper. Tears just flow like an open tap. The results wasn't what I expected.

There was my Geography and English teacher- Mrs Siva and Mrs Pereira. I found myself in the arms of my English teacher. Then I realised that I was tearing like a newborn baby. Anxiety took over me. All I heard was those words of encouragement. I will never forget what Mrs Tan told me on that rainy cold afternoon. She came over to me and gave me a hug. I told her that I'm sorry because I thought that I didn't do well for my Maths. I looked at her through my teary eyes and she told me that she never blamed me. She said that she know that I've did my best and she's happy for me. I will never forget those words. I really thanked Mrs Siva, Mrs Pereira and Mrs Tan for being there for me. :)

Later then I received a lot of texts, asking me how was my results. Received a lot of encouragements and support; all filled with so much love. I'm grateful for Bella's mum and her, for treating me ice-cream to cheer me up. I'm grateful for Rena, for meeting me straight after work to come and cheer me up. I thanked each and everyone for being there for me on that day.

Most importantly, I'm grateful that I have God with me. I really do not know how to face this situation if I didn't meet God. It was Him who strengthens my faith. It was Him who was there for me, who gave me His shoulder to lean on. It was Him who made me strong to go though this hard time. I'm quite surprised that I managed to get over it so soon. Because it was Him who encouraged me. He reminded me not to fear and I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. :)

I did improve my Maths. I didn't get a F9 for my O's. And I managed to get a B3 for my combined Geography and Social studies. Didn't expect myself to score that grade for this subject. I'm really satisfied. But I believe that I can do even better this time.

I'm not going to poly or ITE. I'm going to City College to re-take my English, Maths and Science. Lots of my friends are willing to help me in this subjects and I'm really grateful. Yes, I can do even better. I can do the impossible. I can soar as high as an eagle.

ME + GOD = NOTHING IMPOSSIBLE. ;)

Tuesday: K-box with Jasmine and Yiying.

Wednesday: Dinner with Casandra.

Today: A day out with uncles and granny! Lunch @ SP then headed to town. Played pool! Enjoy it! :)

I feel so happy! :D I mean I am happy! :D

His great and mighty love.

2011-01-09T01:33:00.012+08:00

Hello everyone! :) Are you enjoying the new year? Well, I am! Also, the weather in Singapore now! Cause it's like super cooling! I enjoyed the breeze and I think everyone here is happy with the weather now! Haha! How I wish that this weather can continue for the rest of the year! Don't even have to switch on the air-con when we're sleeping.

Alright, the reason why I'm blogging now because I just want to share something. Something which is more spiritual lah. So yeah.. (Currently, I super tired. Just wanna finish blogging and head to bed!)

Time flies so fast. Like super duper fast. I consider today as Sunday because it's past mid-night already. So, I'm getting my 'O'-level result tomorrow. YES, TOMORROW. :( I can still remember the last paper I sat on the 12 of November so clearly like it happened yesterday. And I'm taking my results tomorrow. I must be lying if I'm telling you that I'm not worried at all. Zzz. Because this certificate determines my future and where I am heading. I could still remember that night, when I was told about the release of the 'O'-level results. I was telling God all my fears and worries. I told Him how worried I was. I didn't want to disappoint Him. I want to lift up His name from glory to glory. I wanted to make one of the best testimony in my life to people. I just want to glorify Him. I didn't want to disappoint my parents especially my dad. I want to set a good example to my brother. And lastly, I didn't want to disappoint myself. Yeah, and that night while praying, I did cried a lot because of my fear. But He gave me peace in my heart. He did.

Just now, I was telling Jasmine how worried I am, about getting my results. And after I got home, I saw this tweet which really encouraged me and I would like to share with all of you. It says "Your worries are nothing than God's promises. When you begin to worry, just stick to Him and see. How great is our God."

The words in that quote are so simple but the meaning it, is so powerful. And I felt that the Lord had spoken to me. And I believe that it doesn't matter if it's a good news or a bad one. I mean it would be better if it's a good news isn't it? Like praise the Lord! Haha! But if it isn't a good news (which I hope it won't happen), I know that God will be with me. And He will have better plans for me! Because He has purpose for everything that's happening in my life. And He'll never put me through something that I can't handle. The God that we serve is a great God! :D

Honestly, I really love all my Saturdays. To be more detail, I just love the church. I think it's the best place in the whole entire world. Hah! Cause the whole place is filled with people who love God and you can just feel His appointing, His presence. I just love seeing people praising and worshipping Him. And at the end of the service, I just love seeing people going for the alter call. Seeing them falling in love with the Lord, wanting to be a follower of Jesus. And this just make me smile this evening. Really! It's really a joy to see souls being saved. I just feel so happy for them.

And one of my new year resolution is to bring at least 6 friends to the House of God at the end of the year. ;)

Oh before I go off to bed......

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Do support my friend! ^^ She's also trying to find earrings and stuff. Yeah, can support lah! ;)

Kk, I'm heading to bed! God bless all of you! :D

Ohoh, I forget one thing! Just wanna thank all those who gave me your encouragement! And those who are keeping me in your prayers! Really appreciate it a lot! :) Love all of youuuuuu!

His Unfailing Love.

2011-01-02T04:58:00.002+08:00

I have not much
To offer You
Not near what You deserve
But still I come
Because Your cross
Has placed in me my worth

Oh, Christ my King
Of sympathy
Whose wounds secure my peace
Your grace extends
To call me friend
Your mercy sets me free

And I know I'm weak
I know I'm unworthy
To call upon Your name
But because of grace
Because of Your mercy
I stand here unashamed

I can't explain
This kind of love
I'm humbled and amazed
That You'd come down
From heavens heights
And greet me face to face

Here I am at Your feet
In my brokeness complete

Another new beginning.

2011-01-02T02:30:00.007+08:00

Hello my readers! Before I start blogging, let me just wish all of you a happy 2011! :) Really hope that all of you who are reading this, will be bless this year and also fulfill your own new year resolutions! :)

The reason why I haven't been posting a proper post is I'm being very very lazy. And I've not been uploading pictures here because it's really very very troublesome and everything is all on Facebook already. So if you're dying to see the pictures because you're curious or you want to know more or whatever reason, just go onto Facebook. :)

Today marks the second day of the new year. And I think I really had a great start of this new year. But before that, let me just remind you that this is going to be a very wordy and long post. If you're not interested, can just close this page. :D (FYI: I spent more than an hour to blog this, don't waste my effort kk!)

Back to the topic. :) Yeah, as I was saying, I really had a great start of this year. I spent my first day of the year in church and I can really say that Pastor Kong's message was really very inspiring. Basically, the message was about dreams and visions and it really caught me thinking. And I really love that place. His presence, His appointing. Everything. Church- the place that I always look forward every single week. :)

2010 wasn't a bad year for me but I can say that in this year, I did went though tough times. And 2010 was a big change for me and I did experience things and problems that I never met before. The major change in 2010 was my salvation. Honestly, this changes my entire life. I didn't expect this to come. Accepting Jesus Christ in my life is one of the decisions that I'll never ever regret. :) Because I received salvation in February, I got to walk with the Lord for the entire 2010 and of course temptations come. Also, my parents objected me for going to church. But that did not stop me from loving God. After my exams, I really felt that I was drifted away from Him. I did not pray as often as I used to but He brought me back to His great and loving arms. :) Trails do strengthens us. Prayers does work too.

Another major event in 2010 was the passing away of my beloved Grandfather after I received my salvation 1 week later. It was so sudden and I was really lost. Not knowing what to do because it was something that I've never gone through before. To be honest, I've never been so close to him before. It was only the end of the year of 2009. Due to his first heart attack. That was when I got so close to him. Up till now, I could still remember how he always make me smile. He never fail to make me smile after visiting him. I could see that he's a loving father. Though he doesn't talk much, I can see how much he loves this family. And I really miss him. I really do. He just left us without saying a goodbye. :( And this really taught me how important it is to really cherish each and every person in my life. Because if you really don't do it, it will only leave yourself with regrets. :(

Grandpa, I just want to let you know that I'm doing fine and I never ever told you that I really love you. Sorry for not telling you. I know it's late but I know that you know that I love you. With much love and misses :(

Gosh, that paragraph really made me cry. :( Let's move on....

Oh, 2010 was also a year with lots of fun and laughters. Thank you Chai Chee Secondary School for giving me the opportunity to meet such great teachers and classmates. To all the teachers that taught me this year. I just wanna say thanks for being so supportive and never give up hope on me. Especially my Maths teacher- Mrs Tan and Mr Tan JH. If it wasn't for the both of you, I really do not know how was I able to take my 'O' level Maths paper.

And of course my four beloved bitches there! Yeah, although you guys might not be reading this but I just wanna thank you all for being a part of my life. It's a great blessing to be able to know all of you. Had so much laughter and some nonsense during our breaks. And thank you for tolerating my bad-temper. Enjoy all the gossip sessions. In short, I just miss ALL of you! Miss all the times sitting together in class. Miss all the times studying in the library after school. Miss all the cam-whore sessions and singing sessions and non-stop laughing sessions and non-stop talking sessions! Miss all of your bitchiness! EVERYTHING. Thanks for all the encouragements, listening ears and shoulders whenever I need them. Thanks for being there for me. Thanks for every single thing. Thanks for being a part of my memory, bitches!

2010 also allow me to know so many nice and awesome people. Thank you N266 for being such loving and fun people. Thanks for all your prayers and laughters you all brought to me. Thank you for making yourselves available whenever I need you. And of course, thank you for tolerating my noisiness and my non-stop laughing. Thank you for being so supportive. Though I just joined you guys for 10 months, it really felt as if I'm with you guys for more than a year. The bond that keep us so close and united. And of course not forgetting DX zone! Really enjoy fellowshipping with everyone of you and all the combined cg and all the prayer meetings! Love each and everyone of you! :)

Ohmygosh, this post is more like a thanksgiving post! Back to the topic......

Although I met lots of new and great friends, I felt that I drifted a bit from my family. Quarrels happened more often. Perhaps one of the causes was due to my bad-tempered and for not being understanding enough. However, Mum and Dad never fail to be there for me, to support me especially the period of my exams. Thank you for giving me money whenever I need it. :P Thank you for all the delicious dishes for dinner! And this year, I managed to get even closer to my brother. Really thank you for listening to my problems despite you're younger than me. Thank you for helping me to take things whenever I'm lazy. Thank you for tolerating my craziness! Of course, I love you even though I always love to hit you! :) I really appreciate all of the things you all have done for me. I might not be the best daughter/sister in the entire world but no matter what happens, I will still be standing there by your side whenever you need me. And sorry for disappointing you. Sorry for keeping you worry whenever I get home late. Sorry for hurting you whenever I shout at you. No matter what, I still love you. :)

I think that's all that I wanna post because currently, I'm super sleepy and tired. My brain is like shutting down. Oh, btw, some people did ask me about my BGR. Lol. Honestly, I'm leaving it to God. Because His plans are way better than mine. From all the past experiences, it all ended up with disappointments and heartaches. Not only that. It also ended up with myself losing friends because two parties get awkward and stuff. So in my opinion, it's not worth it. Why not just wait till the right one to come isn't it? The time will just come. And I'm still young! Lots of other things for me to worry! Yup,yup, and this is one of my new year resolutions! Not to be in the relationship till God shows me the right one! :)

Alright, I'll stop here now. The time now is 04:13 AM. Gosh, I'm so super tired. Thanks for reading this super wordy post that will strain you eyes! (this is only for you if you've read each and every word of this post) Really thank you! :) And I really hope that all of you will have a great 2011. More challenges and trails but this are the things which will strengthen you! Have great faith! God bless each and every single one of you out there! :)

I'm heading to bed already. Goodnights! :)

"If God answers your prayers, He's increasing your faith. If He delays, He's increasing your patience. If He doesn't answer, He has something better for you."

And this is true. :)

Cause you're the only reason for the teardrop on my guitar.

2010-12-29T00:49:00.002+08:00

Enjoying the cool gentle breeze from the window.

What a cooling night to put all our troubles aside.

My heart is looking for you.

2010-12-25T20:21:00.004+08:00

Wondering what are you doing now, how are you doing since the last time we met, what have you been thinking last week. Basically, just everything.
Merry christmas people! Hohoho. How did you spent your Christmas? :) On Christmas Eve, I spent my day with my brother and went to church after that. As for Christmas, spent my whole day with family. Christmas eve's service was simply awesome! Great drama! :) Received lots of Christmas presents this year! Thank you people! Also, I wanna thank my Aunt for such an expensive Christmas gift. It's a watch and I really really love it!

I hope, I pray, I wish that I can get the acoustic guitar tomorrow.

Thanks for giving me the strength that kept me going. Thanks for drawing me back into Your loving arms. Thanks for being there for me when I need someone to be there for me. Thanks for watching over me every night when I sleep, keeping all the nightmares away from me. Most of all, I thanked You for Your almighty love.

Chapter after chapter.

2010-12-18T08:44:00.005+08:00

15 December, the day I turned sixteen. God gave me this life which I'm very grateful for. Chapter 15 of my life, was a huge and long chapter of my life. It was the year where I'm taking my national exams. It was the year whereby I accept Jesus as my Lord and Saviour. It was the year that changed my entire life. It was the year where I met lots of new friends. It was the year whereby I learned how to overcome my love one's death. And this list just gets longer and longer. I can say that this chapter of my life, was a challenging one. Those temptations and trails where I have to overcome. I've been through lots of ups and downs and it's really not easy. I really learn a lot of things. I've found my purpose and the meaning of life.

I could still remember what my love ones told me about my flaws. And I could tell you that it was really very difficult to accept the fact. Cried over the phone in the middle of the night. Sounds super dramatic but it was true. It's like for a moment, your best friends just ignored you and you don't even know what's going on. Dying to know the truth but afraid to know the fact. However, I'm grateful to have friends like that. To tell me my flaws and I can change for the better. Of course, the death of Grandpa was a period of.... (just couldn't find a word to describe it) Everything just happened so sudden. And I really believe that my grandpa did believe in Jesus even though he's not a Christian. I believe that this Grandpa of mine, is happy in Heaven. :)

This whole chapter really made me stronger. I'm no longer weak and frail. Looking back, I really enjoyed all the moments with my love ones, my classmates and schoolmates. I'm grateful that we shared such close bonds which drew us so close. I tried lots of new things in this whole chapter like making a speech in a huge crowd of people. I really enjoyed myself and this made me love my life even more.

Thank you for everything people. You know that I love all of you! :) And thanks for all the birthday wishes via texts, msn and facebook. I'm happy to have all of you in my life. And I'm not going to close this book. I'm going to flip to the next page of this whole book which says "Chapter 16." :)

But still...

Teehee.

Candlelight service later. Caroling tomorrow @ Jurong church with Ian and Lucas. First year celebrating the real purpose of Christmas. I'm excited!

"For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life." John 3:16.

Be bless people! Xoxo.

5th.

2010-12-10T12:23:00.003+08:00

5 more days to my birthday. I'm currently super stress and nervous. Hmm.. Cause I couldn't find the karaoke version of my Chinese song and I'm going to perform in a few hours time. I need to practice hard. God, I'm nervous.

Yesterday, had photoshoot. It was fun and everything turned out well I think. (: The photoshoot ended at 5pm. So we headed to have our super late lunch-super early dinner. Took train home and change and then headed to Kenneth's place for prayer meeting. Saw Jackson on my way home! He was so funny! He saw me but he couldn't call me because there were so distance between us and the train was quite crowded. So he was trying to wave y'know. Like omg, so funny! Something happened during prayer meeting. It was my first time having prayer meeting at Kenneth's place. So we were praying and was so into the spirit. Suddenly, Kenneth's neighbour knocked on the door, scolding us. -.- However, I still enjoyed last night's prayer meeting. (:

For those who have read this, please pray for me. (: Shall blog soon!

7th.

2010-12-08T03:28:00.003+08:00

It's 3.30am now. Guess most of you are already asleep. It's exactly 1 week away from my birthday. I bet some countries are snowing now. I wanna see snow. :( And yeah, a few minutes ago, was telling Gerald what happened on my first day of work. I doubt I want to go back again. And of course, I do feel a lot better after telling him what happened. I'm going to bed soon. And I pray and hope that I won't be woken on by my mother just because of their stupid phone call. Cause it does ruin my beautiful morning. I guess I'm going for another job interview after this Friday. I hope it will be a better one.

God, please enlighten me. Please allow me to do my best on Friday. Do direct my paths for Your ways are better than mine. Make me the head and not the tail; above and not beneath.

Currently, I'm craving for a bowl of hot noodles because of this picture.

I want a bowl of this. :(

I'm going to bed now. Nights.

8th. (7th Dec)

2010-12-08T00:18:00.003+08:00

8 more days to my birthday. Feeling a bit excited about it but I'm currently feeling a bit lost and empty. Mixed feelings. Sigh. :(

The 9th day.

2010-12-06T14:48:00.005+08:00

9 more days to my birthday but today's the worst day ever. I thought I will enjoy myself on the first day of work. But I didn't. Sigh, I don't feel like thinking about it anymore. :( My parents and friends are right, it's really better to study than to work. It really felt so miserable you know. I can't believe I cried my way home. :( The sky was crying too. Sigh. I'm thinking whether to quit this job anot. I thought it's better to do something that you like. Thank God this is just a temporary job. Sigh. Perhaps I'll find another job if I'm really quitting. Twin told me that she know a job which is working in a bookstore. Sigh. I need God. :(

God, please guide me and lead me. For Your plans are better than mine.

Time now is 3:03pm. I'm so hungry. Having some gastric problems nowadays. Sigh. :(

Right now, I just need to be in someone's embrace. I need someone to sit next to me and just listen to me. I need someone to just give me a sweet text. Or just a simple call to ask me if I'm okay anot. I need it badly. :(

Back to December.

2010-12-02T00:03:00.005+08:00

Boo yoh, readers! Time flies so fast like nobody's business. It's December and today marks the 13th day to my birthday. Tonight, I'm going to do a very very short post and I'm off to sleep already. Couldn't watch tv. :(

Actually I wanted to send my grandpa- Aka tomorrow but there's like a change of plan. So I'll be meeting him and Ica for breakfast at Parkway at 8am. Then, I'll be heading back to Tampines for a job interview. After the job interview, I will be heading to the airport to fetch my twin- Heni! We're planning to go for brunch in town. Finally I could catch up with her! And oh, I'll be collecting my beloved camera tmr! Much loves! I miss it so much, perhaps I should give a name to it. LOL. Later in the evening, I'll be meeting my beloved ladies for Ben and Jerry ice-cream! Can't wait to get my waffles with ice-cream which I've been craving for weeks!

Oh, did I mention that I had a very sweet and beautiful dream? I dreamt that I was packing my stuff to Australia! Aww.. How I wish this dream can come true! :( And I think I'll be getting my guitar soon! :D *jumping around and shouting* And if you're reading this now, could you just pray for me that I can get the job and I can get into the finals for the Centerstage competition? (best if I can get in for both solo and duet!) Oh, and also pray that I can learn guitar like next week? Hahahhahaha! :D Thank you!

Going to bed now! Nights!

*much loves and kisses!*

Stronger.

2010-11-28T23:50:00.002+08:00

Hello readers! How was your weekend? (: Well, I did enjoy mine! I really had a lot of fun, especially on Friday! On Friday, Amos, Aka, Reagan, Puteri and I went to Sentosa. But before that, I went to the dental clinic to collect my retainer. Gosh, I hate putting retainer. :( Anyway, we were suppose to meet at Vivocity at 1.30pm but we ended up waiting for our Prince Amos to come. He was like 2 hours late? Thank God that it didn't spoil our plan. Everything turned out well except for the dropping of my camera. Yes, my camera freaking dropped on the rough surface of the floor when the lens was like opened. :( *heartache*

We spent our whole day there even though it rained a bit. Thank God that it only rained for awhile. We took lots of pictures and they're with Puteri. Waiting for her to upload the pictures! (: Headed back to Vivocity at around 7 plus. And then went to town to catch movie. I can't remember the title of the movie. If I'm not wrong, it should be The Last 3 Days. After that we shared cab home. Reached home at around 1am. Love this Friday and I really really hope that we can have such outing again. ♥

(will upload the pictures once my camera is recovered and once Puteri has uploaded them on Facebook.)

Saturday- Met Puteri in the morning and then we headed to town to repair my camera. The lens was damage and it might cost $151.95 just to repair the lens. Hope that there isn't any internal damage. I'm missing my camera so much now. :( After that, trained down to Expo for service. And it was really one of my favourite service! God is really with us! :D Looking forward for the next coming service! (: After service, went for Centerstage audition. And I can freaking tell you that I was so freaking nervous that I almost cried. Lol. I wanna thank all those who gave me encouragements. Love you people! And I was very happy last night! Because I finally get to play the guitar. I'm praying very hard that my birthday wish can come true! (even though there is still like 3 more weeks to my b'day.) So happy!

Sunday- Woke up at 5.45 this morning and I can tell you that I was so so so tired! Headed to Tenah Merah to meet Ica, Reagan and Aka. Went to the airport to send Puteri and Meylisa off. I really hate goodbyes. :( This coming Thursday, think we're gonna send my grandpa- Aka off. Another goodbye. Sigh. Everyone is leaving. May God be there to watch over them and keep them safe. Went back home after that and then I started to tidy up my room. Got too tired, so took a nap and then went to meet Rena and Gerald. Headed all the way to the west to find Yiying. Glad that she's okay. (:

Monday (Today)- Today's Mummy's birthday!

This picture is pretty isn't it?

Mummy, I know you won't be reading this but I just want to let you know that I love you and I'm very bless to be able to have a mum like you. Thanks for being there for me whenever I need you. Thanks for taking care of me when I'm sick. Thanks for all the wonderful dishes you cooked for dinner for the family. You've almost most of your time just to take care of this family. Although sometimes we might quarrel, brother and I may make you angry, we still love you. Even though you might be naggy at times, I know that you care for me. Thanks for paying most of my stuff. Sorry to let you worried about me whenever I come home late. I just wanna let you know that no matter what happens, you're always my mother and I love you. Happy birthday, mummy! ♥

Unexpected.

2010-11-25T00:03:00.008+08:00

You paint me a blue sky and go back, and turn it to rain.

Hello people! Time to blog a proper post. Haha! I felt that lots of things have been happening around me and even though exams are already over, I felt that there's still a lot of things to do. Took my braces off last Friday. And just when I was about to look for jobs on the net, sayang told me that she's going for a job interview tomorrow and asked me if I wanna go along. I felt so bless! :D Oh, and I can't wait for Friday to come because I'm going to Sentosa and I'm going to spend my whole day there! I'm going there with Ica and peeps. Guess that will be the last time we'll be gathering together as a 'class'. :( Most of them are like heading back to their country soon. (FYI; I've a international class. :P)

I felt that everyone is leaving me. Just this year itself, I've two funerals to attend and one of it was my Grandpa's. :( One of my relatives just passed away last Saturday. RIP, even though I'm not close with you, I really hope that you'll be happy in heaven. And also, I really, really miss grandpa. :( 9 months just passed like that. And you're not appearing in my dreams anymore. I heard that when a person who just passed away doesn't appear in your dreams, it means that he/she doesn't want you to worry too much. Is that true? :( Also, most of my classmates are like going back to their country. I won't be able to see some of them again. What a year. Sigh. But I'm really very grateful to be able to meet all of you. God will bless you. And God, please watch over all my love ones.

Time really flies so fast. November is going to end soon. And mummy's birthday is coming soon! Like next week. Hahahhahaaha! And then my birthday will be coming soon. *cough cough* :P I wanna learn guitar so badly. :( Genie, please just grant my only wish now. :(

Alright, I think I need to go to bed now or else, I might not be able to wake up on time tomorrow morning. And I'm going to Dorcas' house for prayer meeting tmr! Yay! But before that....................................................................................

This is me without braces! (: See, my teeth is super straight now. LOL. Like duh. My teeth suffered so much, so much blood shed, so much money 'invested' on my braces, of course straight lahhhhh. I kinda miss braces though. :(

Alright, I'm going to bed now. Bye!

I wanna learn how to play guitar so so so so so so so so so so so so so badly.

I wanna have my ice-cream with waffles soon.

I wanna have fun and have great cam-whore session with my love ones on Friday.

I wanna go to Egypt to see pyramids.

I wanna hug a lion now.

I wanna be a billionaire.

Xoxo;

The 9th month.

2010-11-23T01:03:00.002+08:00

I want to learn this so badly. Why do you have to lie to me and give me fake hopes? :(

The 9th month of the 22nd since you're gone. Do you know how badly I miss you? I yearn to see you again. To see your smile again. To hear your laughter once more. I miss you so badly. And I love you, Grandpa.

For Fun.

2010-11-21T15:13:00.002+08:00

1. Open your library (iTunes, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that’s playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don’t lie and try to pretend you’re cool…

Opening Credits: Live Like We're Dying- Kris Allen
Waking Up: What A Girl Wants- 4 minute
First Day of School: The One- SS501
Falling in Love: Someday- Michael Learns To Rock
Fight Song: It's Alright, It's Okay- Ashley Tisdale
Prom: More Than Words- Extreme
Life: Runaway- Maroon 5
Mental Breakdown: No Promises- Shayne Ward
Driving: Crazy Little Thing Called Love- Maroon 5
Flashback: A Perfectly Good Heart- Taylor Swift
Getting Back Together: Sparks Fly- Taylor Swift
Losing Your Virginity: Back To December- Taylor Swift
Wedding: The Day You Went Away- M2M
Birth of Child: Blind- Lifehouse
Final Battle: OMG- Usher
Death Scene: Tell Me Why- Taylor Swift
Funeral Song: This Ain't A Scene, It's An Arms Race- Fall Out Boy
End Credits: Replay- Shinee

Into your arms again.

2010-11-20T11:57:00.005+08:00

Hi readers. This week has been busy for me but I'm enjoying it. (: Had our Graduation Day on Tuesday. It was in town and I really enjoy everything. 4 years of secondary school just passed like that and sad to say that we're the last batch of Chai Chee students. I could still remember 4 years ago, I hated this school and this school isn't one of my six choices. However, this school has given me a lot of opportunities. I was able to promote to the Express stream when I was in Sec 2 and this school gave me the opportunity to be able to travel to Guizhou and Vietnam. I really love my class- 3EA'09 & 4EA'10. Though there were only 8 Singaporeans in the class and our class is known as international class, I was really really happy to be able to be in this class.

This is the class where we laugh in tears of joy together, work together and most of all, we even cried as a class upon Mrs Teo's leaving. I really have no idea where am I going to find such a united class again. It is true that the part of the chapter has come to the end. Most of you will be going back to your country to further your studies and we'll be separated. But as we grow older, I hope that you guys will look back to our secondary school life and think about the same memories we once had together as a class.

All the memories such as:

- The day when Mrs Teo said that she was going to leave us and the whole class shed our tears.

- The day when we came together as a class to make our 3EA'09 class flag.

- The day whereby we had to run along the school track before we've to take our class pictures.

- The day whereby Jane made the most beautiful speech ever to the whole school.

- The day whereby we saw our classmates supporting Harry for his 2.4km run.

- Those days whereby we gossip with our favourite teachers.

- Those days whereby we used to celebrate our classmates' birthday in the canteen.

- Those days whereby the whole library was used by our class for Maths with Mr and Mrs Tan.

And of course this list carries on.

Here are some pictures on our graduation day. (Click to enlarge)

And here are some pictures of Jane and John's birthday celebration.

More pictures on Facebook. (:

You don't have to know.

2010-11-19T01:07:00.003+08:00

Don't fall for me.

Don't fall anymore deeper.

Look at the stars, look how they shine for you. And everything you do, yeah they were all yellow.

I came along, I wrote a song for you. And all the things you do. And it was called yellow.

So then I took my turn, oh all the things I've done. And it was all yellow.

Your skin. Oh yeah your skin and bones. Turn into something beautiful. D'you know you know I love you so, You know I love you so.

I swam across, I jumped across for you. Oh all the things you do, Cause you were all yellow

I drew a line, I drew a line for you. Oh what a thing to do. And it was all yellow

Your skin. Oh yeah your skin and bones. Turn into something beautiful. D'you know for you I bleed myself dry. For you I bleed myself dry

Its true look how they shine for you. Look how they shine for you, look at the stars look how they shine for you.

Happy go lucky!

2010-11-13T02:47:00.003+08:00

Hello people! I wanna declare something here! I'm finally done with O-level. The smell of freedom is here already! I've tried my very best and effort in all my papers and I'm leaving the rest to God! I really hope that I'll be able to get good grades! *pray hard!* Well, I'm really very happy today! Cos I'm finally done with my exams. Also, I managed to have a lot of fun, fellowshipping with my fellow cell group members! Btw, Venice came out for Social Studies and I was mad happy! Okay, back to the topic. Lol. Went to The Cathay to had our dinner. Settled our dinner @ Astons. (: Yums! And, and, and, I bought a new pair of heels for my graduation day! Can't wait for Tuesday to come! And I'm going to shop on Sunday with my beloved mother, Rena!♥

Okay, I promise to upload pictures asap! (: Going to bed alr! Nights!

This is so sweet. ♥

2010-11-09T18:53:00.000+08:00

Boy: You know what?
Girl: What?
Boy: Next time i see you, don’t wear that skirt again, it’s too revealing
Girl: Why? I thought you loved that skirt
Boy: Next time, wear something that reaches to your ankles
Girl: Ok whatever
Boy: A dress that reaches to your ankles.. and wear long white gloves that reach to your elbows
Girl: What?
Boy: Trust me
Girl: What are you trying to do? Hide me from everyone?
Boy: Do up your hair as well real pretty
Girl: Are You listening to what i’m saying? You’re so conservative, don’t choke me like this… Are you kidding me?
Boy: I’m dead serious.
Girl: You know i dont like guys who boss me around
Boy: … Wear a veil
Girl: … what?
Boy: Wear this ring too
Girl: ….
Boy: Marry Me

Tumblr. :)

2010-11-08T23:43:00.000+08:00

Follow me on tumblr ;)

www.y-ourromance.tumblr.com

C'ya there!

Rain, rain.

2010-11-07T00:41:00.003+08:00

Hello readers! Today is Saturday! Erm, well, it's past 12am, so considered as Sunday. Lol. How's your Saturday? I really enjoyed today's service. It was really an unusual service and Pastor Phil was really great. The anointing- awesome! Pastor Phil laid hands on us and it was my first time. Felt different and refreshed! I'm enjoying the weather, the rain, how about you? Great fellowship with the cell group. Love my Renaaaaaaa! Oh, and Cas treated me coke float! :D Alright, I'm turning in alr, so tired. Going to mug really hard tomorrow for my Social Studies and Fnn!

Nights people! :)

Xoxo;

Come on, let your colors burst.

2010-11-04T13:25:00.004+08:00

Do you remember, we were sittin' there, by the water? You put your arm around me for the first time. You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter. You are the best thing that's ever been mine. Flash forward, and we're takin' on the world together. And there's a drawer of my things at your place. You learn my secrets and figure out why I'm guarded. You say we'll never make my parents' mistakes.

Bad day.

2010-11-01T11:17:00.003+08:00

Hey guys, how was your weekend? :) Well, my weekend was really really awesome. On Saturday, it was Dad's birthday and I really manage to spend the whole day with my family. It has been long ever since I stay home on Saturdays. Hahahhahaahha! Took lots of pictures and I promise, and I promise that I'll upload them soon. :) Sunday was great too! Headed to church early in the morning and it was one of the best sermons. Pastor Kong talked about HOPE. It was really good and touching! :D And it turned my Sunday morning beautiful :D

After service, Cas and I headed to the airport and had Popeye for our lunch. Thank God we were there early because after we had bought our food, the restaurant was later filled with people. Actually I'm suppose to have lunch with my precious mother, Rena. But after that, she said that she'll be having lunch at home. And she was very late you know! 2 and a half hours late! Cas and I had a great time spamming her inbox. Hee! :)

Settled ourselves at Starbucks and soon, got 'kicked out' there. Cos it was a weekend and we were not able to study there. -.- Headed to Starbucks again at Simei and got 'kicked out' again. We then headed back to Expo to meet Willie at Coffee Bean. I told Rena that I was like touring around the East of Singapore. LOL! Cos I was at Expo for service! And it was very tiring. Haha! So studied there till 8 plus.

Today, is the first day of the month and I really feel suckish. Wanted to wake up early in the morning to study for today's paper. I was really very tired and I have no idea why. So headed back to sleep for a few more hours. I was feeling hungry but there was no food at the kitchen. Mum didn't even bother. And that spoil my mood. :( Sigh, Physics, oh Physics. I think I hate you now. I sound like a hypocrite! :( A few days back, I posted "I hate to say this but I think Physics is fun" as my status. And now I posted, "I can't wait to get over Physics" as my status this morning. LOL!

Tomorrow will be Geography paper. I think and I hope that I can study outside cos I think I really cannot study at home and it is really a sad thing. Worse is, tomorrow's paper will be in the morning, which also means that I got to wake up early in the morning. -.-

K, I got to get back to Physics. -.- If you have nothing to do, pray for me then. Hahahahhahahah! :D I think I won't be updating my blog till next Monday afternoon even though I have 5 days break after tomorrow's paper because I have 5 essays to write on Monday. Two papers on that day. 5 essays. Kill me. LOL!

Wish me luck! :D

Exam period.

2010-10-29T23:15:00.004+08:00

Do you notice that I've changed my layout? Hee! But I'm facing some problems. I don't know how to put links and songs for this kind of layout. -.- Anyone knows?

Hello people! Time flies like 1234567890 years, especially during this period of time! Yeah, O-level has already started. 7 papers to go, 13 more days! And I know I have not been updating. So sorry! My blog now is like super dead. -.- I'll try to make it more alive. Haha! English, Mathematics and Chemistry P3 is finally over. At least, I can relax a bit. Best is I pass my Maths P2. Can you imagine I got a freaking F9 for Maths for my prelims? Now, at least, there's still hope. *pray hard!*

Due to the 'busy' and stressful life I'm going through now, I'm really missing all the fun. How I wish O-level is over now. Have to endure for 13 more days! Yes, just 2 more weeks and I'll be free! Lots of things are happening now and after we have graduate from CCSS, I'll definitely miss all those days. Those are really precious memories in my secondary school days. Aww.. :( Life still carry on though.

Nowadays, I have been heading out to study with friends because I really cannot study at home. Even when I lock myself in my room. -.- Not fruitful at all. Thank God, at least I can still concentrate outside. I'm really missing out cell group meeting. I've not been attending for almost a month? :( Finally next Friday, I can attend cell group meeting! *Hooray!*

Oh, in 30 minutes time, it'll be Dad's birthday! Yay! Can't wait! And Sunday, will be going for service with Cas. And then will be meeting my precious mother, Rena, for lunch. Then we're going to study*! :) Can't wait lahhhhhhhhh!

I really can't wait for 16 Nov! It's our Graduation Day! *excited!* I just realised that I can't wait for everything. -.-

Shall blog soooooooooon k! Love you people! *hugs and kisses!*

A Short Prayer.

2010-10-18T10:56:00.003+08:00

I spent my whole Sunday, reading the bible. Cried during my quiet time. His Love is just so great and beautiful. Felt so refresh.

Dear Heavenly Father,

Lord, I thank You for all the things that You've done in my life. I thank You for drawing me closer to You again. Lord, I pray that today's revision will be a fruitful one. I pray that You can give me strength whenever I feel like giving up. I pray that You will give me wisdom and allow the Holy Spirit to guide me and teach me. I believe that I will be able to conquer as the bible says that I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. I pray that whatever I've studied, will come out for examinations O'Lord. Allow me to be able to lift Your name from glory to glory. Lord, I pray for peace whenever I'm nervous. Father, I pray that I will be able to achieve my goals and dreams in the name of Jesus. I pray for a much more stronger relationship with You, Father. I thank You for the people around me O'Lord. I thank You for the people who have been praying for me. I lift up my family and friends into Your loving hands. I pray that You'll be watching over them, regardless whether they're a believer of Jesus. I love You and I praise You and I pray this in Jesus mighty name O'Father, Amen.

Going to study with babe! Bye!

Afraid.

2010-10-17T13:06:00.003+08:00

8 more days to O's and I'm feeling a bit....... Afraid? Time flies so fast and I know that it'll be over soon. Prelim results was sucky. And this whole week, I felt that I'm a bit drifted from God because there's so many things to do at this point of time. I got tired so easily and school ends late. He knows that I don't want to be drifted from Him. He made me fall in love with Him all over again yesterday. He touched my heart again. The feeling was great and indescribable. His love is so great and beautiful.

I thanked God for my parents. They never give me any pressure. All they want, is for me to do my best. But I'm afraid that I'll disappoint them. I don't want to. I felt that I'm giving myself pressure? I really want to do well and do the things I want to accomplish in my life.

In short, I know that He'll be there for me. He'll be next to me, guiding me, giving me strength whenever I need them. Million thanks to all the people who prayed for me. Love you people especially N266. :)

Lastly, thank you Jane and John for having us last Friday. I really do not know if we're going to have such class meetings again but I really enjoyed it. Hope you guys had a blast! Love you people! :)

Tough times.

2010-10-05T17:00:00.003+08:00

Hi readers! Wonder how you guys are doing. Well, I've been pretty busy nowadays, with studies of course. I've gotten back my prelims results except for fnn and honestly it wasn't really well done. However, there were improvements. :) I was pretty disappointed with my Chemistry marks. I was expecting myself to get at least a B4 or B3, but I got a C5. Sigh. But it's okay, I can try harder for my O's. What really surprised me was my Social Studies paper. I studied Globalisation but it didn't came out for SEQ. Still, I was able to score 21/50 with only my SBQ and L2 marks for SEQ. I was really surprised. All this failure once discouraged me. But now, instead of being disappointed, it motivates me and I grew stronger.

I won't be blogging or twitting or appearing on MSN till 12 of Nov. However, I'll still be active on Facebook :) Drop me a text or call me if there's anything important ya. And do pray for my examinations :) Love you people!

Life.

2010-10-03T01:20:00.007+08:00

I miss him. I really do. And I know he misses us too.

I'm really very grateful. I thank God for the friends around me. Especially the people in N266. Even I have the suck-est friends ever in my life (and they know who they are lah) , but I know there are still true friends who will really be there for me. Like what Atwell told me on Thursday, so what if people hate me? I don't even give a damn about it. Cos I know I still have better and greater friends in my life.

How true. And God really showed me who my true friends really are.

Also, through all the toughest times that I have been through, God showed me one thing. He showed me that no matter what happen, He'll always be there for me and He really is there. This is what it really touches my heart. His love is just so great. And my love for Him is just indescribable. No words can say how much I want Him. He is just so great.

Today is Sunday. 22 more days to O-level. I know I can do it. I know I can.

Sick and tired.

2010-09-30T22:43:00.002+08:00

I've never felt so terrible in my life before.

I'm really sick and tired about it.

How much can I really do?

It's disappointing, it's discouraging.

Tears just dropped from my eyes.

They're uncontrollable.

Who can know how terrible I feel?

I tried to fake a smile,

can't you see how fake the smile is?

All I know is that,

I will never be the Huiwen again.

Somewhere, somehow, someone.

2010-09-28T14:11:00.003+08:00

Right now at this very minute, someone is very proud of you. Someone is thinking of you. Someone cares about you. Someone misses you. Someone wants to talk to you. Someone wants to be with you. Someone hopes you aren’t in trouble .Someone wants to hold your hand. Someone wants you to be happy just for you. Someone thinks you ARE a gift. Someone wants to hug you. Someone loves you. Someone admires your strength. Someone is thinking of you and smiling. Someone wants to be on your shoulder to cry on. Someone thinks the world of you. Someone wants to protect you. Someone would do anything for you. Someone wants to be forgiven. Someone is grateful for your forgiveness. Someone wants to laugh with you about old times. Someone remembers you and wishes you were there. Someone needs to know that your love is unconditional. Someone wants to tell you how much they care. Someone wants to share their dreams with you. Someone wants to hold you in their arms. Someone wants YOU to hold them in your arms. Someone treasures your spirit. Someone wishes she/he could STOP time because of you. Someone loves you for who you are. Someone wants to be with you. Someone hears a song that reminds her/him of you. Someone is glad that you’re her/his only true love. Someone wants to be your friend. Someone stayed up all night thinking about you. Someone is alive because of you. Someone believes that you are their soul mate. Someone wants to be near you. Someone misses your guidance and advice. Someone values your guidance and advice. Someone has faith in you. Someone trusts you. Someone needs you to send them this letter. Someone needs your support. Someone needs you to have faith in them. Someone needs you to let them be your friend. Someone will cry when they read this.

3 more papers, 2 more days.

2010-09-26T15:59:00.005+08:00

I love this man. He motivates me. His story is really very touching.

Hi readers! How was your weekend? My weekend was awesome. :) On Friday, went for cell group meeting and I was asked to do the song sheet. It was pretty fun and easy! :) Of course, all of us had a great time praising and worshipping Him. Shared our testimonies and the sermon was awesome! Had lots of fun and laughter too! We were talking about our childhood and how we bullied our siblings when we were very young. Hahahahhaahah!

Yesterday, was Saturday! :) Saturday = going to the House of God! :D I was asked to buy birthday cake for Willie as we're celebrating his birthday. After buying the cake, rushed down to Expo and had bs with Rena! It has been long ever since I last had my bs. One more lesson to go and I can move on to FT1! Of course service was awesome! I was totally high during the praise songs. Hahahahhahaha! Dr A.R Bernard preached! AWESOME! Yeah, so after service, celebrated Willie's birthday! :D And all the O-level students got gift from cell group! It was really very sweet. Heard that there's still card! Just that it was not done yet cos our Jasmine xiao jie went to Taiwan! Hahhahahahaah! Trained to Bugis and fellowship there, then Willie, Rena and I headed to Bedok Mac at around 11 plus and talked for awhile. Headed home aftermath.

Today, went for my dental appointment. So happy! The gaps on my left side has already close. A bit more to go on my right side. Hopefully I can take my braces out by November! :D Rushed home, then had tuition. And here I am blogging! Still have some stuff to do, like praying, washing the laundry before I can start doing that stupid insane Physics -.-

Before I end this post,

I would like to wish,

someone a HAPPY BIRTHDAY :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JASMINE!

Finally you're back from Taiwan! You must have enjoy yourself there uh! Miss all your laughter! You're finally 21! Still very young lahhhh! :) Though I'm not as close to you as I am with Rena, but I really do enjoy myself when we were together. Still remember that sisters' night at town, with all the match making session? Hahahahahhaah! Bet you won't forget! :) Don't keep on think of the durian ehhhhh! Hahahahhahaha! Thank you for all the guidance these short 6 months. :) I really thank God that I'm able to know you! :) All the best for your future and I believe that you will be able to shine in the Lord! Smile and stay happy always! And I love you! :)

Teenage dream.

2010-09-24T14:41:00.005+08:00

It's finally Friday! *shouts, screams!* This week has been very tiring and busy! It's the exam period! It's really very very tiring. Mugging so hard. Sigh. And of course there are times where I really feel like giving up but still, I managed to pull it through!

I've been waking up very early everyday to study, as early as 4am? This morning was like the earliest of all, at 2am and I bet everyone's already soundly asleep. At least, my hard work did pay off! :) Monday was MT paper, so no need to study. Hahhahahahaha! Tuesday was Maths paper 1 and 2. I lost 2 marks for nothing because I miss out that question and when I found out, the teacher went like "Pens down." :( Wednesday was Social Studies. Well, it's obvious that I'm gonna fail because I studied Globalisation only but it didn't came out for SEQ. :( Thursday was Chemistry Paper 3. It went well but I forgot to answer one part of the question -.- Friday, which is today, it's GEOGRAPHY! :D So happy because I'm kinda confident. Hopefully it can pull up my Humans overall marks cause my Social Studies was kinda screwed up. And also I feel that I didn't do very well for the last 2 parts of the question because I didn't really focus on that area. Haha!

Well, 3 more papers, 2 more days to go! It's Physics and Fnn -.- Physics, the suck-est subject ever in my life and Fnn, with Section A and B plus (not 1, not 2 but...) THREE ESSAYS QUESTIONS to do! :( which also means that my Sunday will be gonneeeeee. :( But.. I don't have to report to school on Wednesday! Yay! Probably staying at home to study? Hahahahhaha! Hopefully I don't fail any subjects.

Oh, before that, let me present to you......

AHEM* :)

TA-DA!

Hahahahhahahahah! I really love it! And did I forget to mention that I can only draw like..... Err.. Stickmans. Haha! I love my Geography textbook! I feel like studying Geography again! Okay, I'm crazy now. Lol! I shall stop go my craps alreadyyyyyyy..

Going for cell group meeting later! Yay!

Shall blog soon kk! Love you people!! :)

P/S; And it's raining now! Wooooohhhhh!

Told cha' I'm crazy and high now! (maybe it's lag of sleep uh! Hahahhahahahha!)

Xoxo;

Crappy day.

2010-09-19T19:59:00.003+08:00

My brother isn't at home. He didn't come home last night as he celebrated my cousin's birthday. I kinda miss him. Yeah, miss him. :( Up till now, he's still isn't home yet. I'm bored. I tried to study, but I can't. Didn't have motivation today. And I'm really very upset with myself. Instead of doing Maths, I read the bible. Sigh. I'm alone at home now. My parents went to visit my Grandpa. Wanted to go with them but I thought that I should stay at home to study and revise my schoolwork. It's really very frustrating. I hate it when this happens. Crap, crap, crap.

No mood at all now. Bye.

Here is love, pour out so freely.

2010-09-18T22:37:00.004+08:00

Learn to love your enemies, and bless them.

Hello readers! I'm just came back from church and today is the first time I came back so early. Hahahahahhaah! Today cell group was like so little people. Cas and Rena didn't come because they had something on. Jasmine, YiYing and Kenneth are in Taiwan now! Also, some other cell group member didn't come today. Fellowship, only six people. Hahahahahhahaha! Anyway, I cancel today's tuition because I seriously need my sleep. So, went for service and today's sermon was awesome! *thumbs up!*

Pastor Kong preached today!

"God brought me out, in order to bring me in." All of us were so happy that he finally preached. It has been really long ever since he last preached. I'm sure the whole church love our pastor and we'll always keep the church in our prayers. :) Headed to Airport T3 for fellowship. Can you believe it? It's Mac again! Gosh! Jianfeng also share with us some things which I find it very true and I'm very blessed by what he said. Amen. :)

Also, I would like to share with all of you my plans after O's [ Not according to order :) ]

1. Dye/highlight my hair! :)

2. Learn guitar!

3. Spend some quality time with family, friends, classmates and sisters and brothers in cg!

4. Universal studios for free! (if I manage to get 15 points and below for O's)

5. Macbook Pro! (If I do well for O's)

6. Probably find a job.

7. Tidy up my room!

8. Buy books, books, books!

9. Holiday with family!

10. Watch all the dramas and movies I missed!

11. SHOPPING!

12. Try to persuade/save my own money to buy a DSLR.

13. Create a new tumblr account.

There are so many, many things I wanna do after O's. It's like having freedom! Don't have to be 'tied' up with all the brain cracking problematic stuff! Gosh! I'm also human! I needa break! However, no pain, no gain. This is the final lap! Chiong ah!

K, enough of my crap, I need to study! Hahahahhahaha! Shall blog soon! Bye!

Cold as you.

2010-09-18T04:14:00.003+08:00

"When you’re a little girl, you believe in fairytales. And you say you’re going to find Prince Charming and he’s going to be everything you want him to be. In fairytales, the bad guy is easy to spot. He’s always wearing a black cape. Then you grow up. You find out that Prince Charming isn’t as easy to find as you thought. The bad guy isn’t wearing a black cape. He’s really cute and he makes you laugh."

-Taylor Swift.

I don't have any mood to continue blogging. Bye.

Breaking free.

2010-09-16T14:19:00.003+08:00

When we were a child, we don't have to worry about studies and our future. I miss my childhood. :(
Hi readers! Today is the 16 of September which is the first day of my prelims. First paper, Science Practical. I went to school as normal and I admit that I really didn't even study last night. Instead, I was watching television. Hahahahaha! I really hate practical. I hate it to the core. Practical was so-so. After the paper, we have to kept for hours in the E-lab cause we were in the first shift. Instead of studying, Ronald, Shafarina, Bella, Heni and I were talking. So much fun! :) After that, Heni, Bella Ronald and I headed to Mac for lunch. Thanks for the apple pie, Ronald! :)

Ama and Nad happened to be there too. So they joined us. And then, all of us started to talk about K-pop. Hahahahahhahahaha! So much fun! Let's go to Bayshore after our last paper of O's k! :) I really had a lot of fun. Then we were talking our plans after O's. Omg, I really can't wait for that day to come! Provided if we do well for exam lah. Haha! There is like so many things to do after O's!

K, I'll blog till here! Gonna shower and head to Coffee Bean! Bye peeps!

Next post: Plans after O's! :D

P/S; All the best for EL paper tomorrow!

Blissful.

2010-09-14T23:21:00.007+08:00

Today's the second day of school. It wasn't that bad, just missing my long sleep. I have to admit that today, I'm really blessed. (Even though I didn't manage to complete my Geography mock exam and I think I'll do very badly)

1. Height and weight.

I didn't gain any weight and I'm really very happy because I always thought that I gain weight! Glad I didn't! I just need to grow a few more centimeters. Hahahahahhaa!

2. Geography mock exam.

As mentioned above, I wasn't able to complete the paper on time and I think I'll fail. But I'm still blessed! :) Know why? Cause I was only informed about the mock test last night and I wasn't able to study. I really cannot do last minute studying. And I know I've already put in my best effort. So, it's sort of a 'wake up' call for me, to really buck up on other subjects too. Gonna work hard for prelims and O-level :)

3. Temptations.

If you know me well, you will know that I'm easily influence by people and at times, I can't even make my own decisions. However, in just 3 days, I managed to resist my temptation. And I'm trying very hard to save up as much as I can. By the end of this week, I think I'll be able to save $20 :)

4. Friends.

Just now, during lunch break, MT lesson and after school, I managed to have a proper chat with Ica and Heni :) Finally, we managed to have a H2H session and they shared with me their worries. Don't worry sisters, I'll be praying for the both of you. :) Love you!

5. Family.

After I got home, I managed to have some quality time with my parents. Dad doesn't have to go to work till next Monday and I'm so glad to be able to spend time with them. Also, tomorrow is Wednesday. School starts at 8.30am. I've promised my parents that I'll be having breakfast with them before heading to school. I really can't wait to spend my morning with them :) I love you, Daddy and Mummy! :)

6. Revision.

My motivation finally came at the right time! I managed to do Mathematics and some revision on Geography. Today's study plan did went out well and it's really very fruitful :)

And all these things were possible because of Him. Thank You, Lord :)

Going to have my quiet time and I'll be off to bed. Good night :)

P/S; Will be meeting Rena on Thursday! :)

Xoxo;

A New Start.

2010-09-13T18:45:00.003+08:00

Gonna do a very short post and then I'm going to shower and start revising my work. I can't believe that prelims are starting this week and I'm kinda worried if I can't make it for my O's. *touch wood* First paper on the list; Science practical. I hate it so much even though you can get to play around with the chemicals. Haha! But hating it doesn't means that I don't have to take the paper. Sometimes, I really wished that I wasn't born in Singapore even though I love Singapore and is proud to be a Singaporean. Living in Singapore is so stressful and I feel that education in the States or Australia is better. Haha! How I wish I'm born in Australia! So that I can see Hillsong! Hahahhahahhahaa!

I really want to do well in my O-level examination. I mean, who doesn't want to do well? I'm always looking forward to poly life even though some said that it can be very stressful. But I don't want to do social studies or english or chinese or worse still, physics. (Eww..) Whatever, I feel like I'm just craping here. Haha! I'm just too stress! Argh!

Anyway, last night was a terrible night for me. I shall not mention it here cause it's kinda personal and I'm glad that I jot it down in my diary. Sigh, it'll be over. Share with bitch and twin! :) Finally, I've let it out and it really feels very terrible to keep it inside my heart. Alright, I think I should really stop crapping here and should stay away from my lappy. Hahahahahhahaa!

I'M GOING TO STUDY NOW! BYE READERS! :)

Xoxo.

God blessed me.

2010-09-09T23:57:00.006+08:00

Photographs catpure memories that we'll never forget.
Hello readers! Hahahahhaha, I'm free tonight, to blog. :) Well, please ignore the post at the bottom (the post I blogged last night) cause I was pretty pissed off last night. You know whenever you're angry at something, you'll tend to say things which are not meant to be and you'll regret the things you've said. Okay, so yesterday, after school, headed to town to meet my mother; Rena! I miss her so much! I've spent hours with her! It's quality time! Haha! I really enjoyed myself with her especially when we headed to Borders and that was my first time, sitting at the bench in the bookstore and read books. Maybe we can do that again right after my exam! :)

I was kinda happy until crap happened last night. Whatever. Cried a lot and pray before I slept and when I woke up this morning, I really felt peace and I felt happy :) Headed to school and did Maths. Had kfc for lunch and headed home to bathed and then left my house at 2pm. Went to Coffee Bean @ Expo to study alone. I've been there once during a weekday and I feel that it's quite a nice environment to study. But not on Saturdays. (For me lah!) Hahahahhahaa! It's really fruitful for me.

Headed to Tampines at 6pm to meet Rena as there's cell group meeting today. If not, I would have stay there a bit longer to study :) Fellowship a bit when we reached Jianfeng's place before cgm start. I felt that tonight's message was really a good one. To be more like Christ-like, isn't just sitting down and read the bible. It also means to renew our mind, to change our values and the most importantly, to form good habits. I really enjoyed myself. And I hope that the surprise for Xiao Yong, turned out well cos I couldn't go with them, gotta go home and study. Hahahahhaha!

Looking forward to Saturday! Pastor Phil! :) I'm sure it'll be a great message to the church too! :) I really want to thank the Lord for all the people around me, my family, N266, the people in church, my classmates and schoolmates and of course all the sisters, brothers and friends. You people are just awesome :)

Before I end my post for the day, just wanna post a short message to someone. If we were to go back to that day, my decision would still be the same. From that day till now, I've never regret the decision I made. And I know that I won't regret the decision I made for the rest of my life. Now you have found someone and as a friend, I'm really happy for you. Just wanna say all the best in your future and God bless. :)

Just wanna end this post a verse.

Proverbs 3:5-6

Trust in the Lord with all of your heart,

And lean not on your own understanding;

In all your ways acknowledge Him,

And He shall direct your paths.

P/S; I'm happy. Very happy. Even without you. And this shows that both of us, has moved on. :)

Liars.

2010-09-08T22:07:00.002+08:00

I'm blooding pissed.

My blood is boiling.

I'm seriously pissed off.

And when you're pissed at something or someone,

You just wanna shut yourself up from all this crap.

From this outside world.

How I wish there is someone who understand how I feel, how angry I am feeling now.

How I wish, there is someone special, sitting next to me,

lending me a shoulder to cry on.

A ear to listen.

A hand to wipe my tears away.

Bringing me away from all these crap.

The beautiful exchange.

2010-09-05T01:09:00.004+08:00

Jesus died on the cross for you and me, just for one very simple reason; He loves us. He gave His life, in a beautiful exchange.

Hi readers! Since I'm using my laptop now, must as well blog now right? On Thursday, went to study with Ica and Heni in the morning and then in the afternoon, headed to town to meet Kaisim to watch Step Up 3D. Had so much fun and laughter with her! I miss her so much and it has been months since I last saw her. Hope that we can catch up again after my examination. Last evening, there was suppose to head to Jianfeng's place for cell group meeting. Unfortunately, he wasn't feeling well so the cell group meeting was cancelled. Thank God he is okay now :)

Instead of studying at home, I managed to spend some quality time with that silly brother of mine. He has really grown up. He has become more sensible. Last night, we were talking about all our childhood memories we had together when we were young. I really miss those days, whereby we do not need to worry so much about our study and we always have so much free time after school. We had so much fun together and those were the best memories in my entire life. How I wish we can return to those days. Haha!

Today, headed for service in the afternoon. I miss my mother! She's in Bangkok now! I told her not to miss me too much but I think I'm missing her toooooo much! :( Wondering how is she doing now. Should be fine lah :) She'll be coming back on Tuesday night and I'll be meeting her on Wednesday after school! Can't wait! I really, really miss her!

Alright, I'm tired. Shall blog soon!

Xoxo.

Btw.. This is my new boyfriend :)

Hahahaha, joking. My brother :)

Nights!

And my heart will sing, praise and worship You alone.

2010-09-01T00:17:00.002+08:00

It has been ages I last blogged. Hmm.. I think I'll only be able to blog like weekly because as time flies, prelims and O's seem to be drawing nearer. Hopefully I can blog daily after my examination! Life is indeed like a roller coaster ride, with ups and downs. A lot of things really happened in my life. Of course there were times when I was discouraged and I've lost the hope and courage. However, the Lord is always there for us. And it is true. He has planned every single thing that happens in our life. Trails and difficulties do happen in our lives. We meet obstacles because life is never easy. However, these trails that we met, make us stronger. And we can often find peace and comfort in Him because He loves us and do shower us with lots of love. :)

Today, is the last year we're celebrating teachers' day in Chai Chee. It is indeed a memorable one. In the morning, our class did some bonding games and then headed to the hall to do the workout. Headed for recess and then concert. School ends about 12.30pm. Ica, Reagan, Heni and I headed to Parkway for lunch and then Ica, Heni and I decided to study. So we headed home and bath, and we met at Coffee Bean for our revision. It was very fruitful as I finally got to 'touch' Physics. Saw a lot of people that we know. Headed home at around 10pm and the bus ride home, seemed to be a long one. I wanted to sleep in the bus but I was afraid that I might miss my stop. Tomorrow, I'm going to study with my two sisters in the morning and in the afternoon, I'll be heading to town to meet Kaisim and to catch Step Up 3D! Will be meeting my mother and have dinner together! Awesome! Can't wait! :)

Before I end my post, I just wanna say that no matter what, don't give up hope. Whether you are a believer of Jesus or not, I feel that as long as we have faith in ourselves and stay positive, we can make the impossible, possible. Lastly, I just want to thank Him for what He has done for me in my life on Monday. That was where it changes my life. I was so touched that I teared.

Thank You, my Saviour.

Renewed.

2010-08-22T02:50:00.003+08:00

I've found hope in You, my Heavenly Father.
Yesterday, I bought my brother for fellowship with cell group and I really want to thank God for answering my prayer. I've always wanted my brother to be come before Christ. I managed to persuade him and he really enjoyed himself. :) After prayer meeting @ Riverwalk with Cas, we headed to Dhoby Ghaut for dinner @ Just Acia. The food was awesome, especially the ice-cream! :) JianFeng spoke to us for quite some time about studies. I was really inspired by what he had said to us and I feel that it's really time to mug now. I just have to endure for like 1 and a half months. It was really fun, to fellowship with my cell group :)

Today, headed down to Coffee Bean @ Expo to study. Went for prayer meeting. It was so powerful and I really feel that what the pastor had shared during the prayer meeting, was for me. Gerald said that too. I really prayed very hard and I was really very touched. Sprit of Goodness and Mercy is always there. The presence of God was really great. I felt a lot happier after that. I felt assurance, peace, warmth, happiness in my mind. And when I was praying just now, I felt that the devil was trying to make me feel discourage but I listened to pastor, which is to focus on the Spirt of Goodness and Mercy and I made it. I really want to thank God for everything He had done for me. Without Him, I'll be living with all my sins and I wouldn't know His perfect love.

Service was even better. Pastor A.R Bernard was really good and His preach was awesome! I really love him, he's preaching is always amazing, especially with his bio-psycho-social-spiritual beings! :)

Kenneth will be graduating from SOT next week! Can't wait for the celebration! :) This coming service will be an awesome one! :D

Alright, tomorrow will be another brand new day. Going to sleep now, nights peep!

Xoxo;

Be strong.

2010-08-18T20:40:00.003+08:00

It's hard.
Today is the day. Today, is the day I've been yearning for. To know our MT 'O' level results. All of us were very anxious about it. We have no idea what time we will be heading to the hall. Till 12:50pm, we heard the announcement. I was looking forward yet was afraid. Finally, Mrs Lau was giving out the results slip. It was according to the register number and I was counting.

"12 more to go." I told myself when the first result slip was given out. I saw tears of joy and screaming. My heart was pounding and I had a bad feeling out of a sudden.. A really bad one. I knew that my result slip was coming soon. At last, the 13th result slips came into my hands. But that wasn't the results I wanted. I burst out of tears immediately.

All along, I knew I wasn't gonna score well. How am I suppose to score well with an essay written out of point? I was totally trashed. Still, I kept a positive mindset. I knew that that wasn't my best effort. I was so angry at myself. I was about to tear the result slip. But I controlled. I score a pass for Chinese. Just a pass. I have never ever gotten myself a C6 for exams but why O's? With a merit for oral. What on earth is this? At that time, I really wanted to give myself a tight slap. Friends and classmates came over to comfort me. The harder I cried.

From the hall to the classroom, I just cried non-stop. I know I could still retake for the paper. But it's not okay for me. Who really understand my feeling? I'm not only letting myself down. I let my parents down. I let God down. I'm blaming myself. I'm blaming myself for not knowing the meaning of 友善? WHY?

Met Rena after she knocked off. She tried to cheer me up and we went for Secret Recipes. Thank you, mother! Love you always!

And I really want to thank all my friends and classmates. Thank you for being there for me. Love you people too.

Oh happy day!

2010-08-10T21:20:00.003+08:00

Hi peeps! I decided to post a short post. Well, yesterday was national day! I'm proud to be a Singaporean! Are you? :) Though yesterday was national day, I didn't celebrate because I had tuition at 12 and it lasted for 4 hours (say wow, hahahahaahahaha!) then I went to tidy up my room. Started cleaning up at 4 and I was thinking maybe by 7 I might be done with everything. But I was wrong! I almost gave up in cleaning up but I can't because the floor was in a mess. I've no choice but to clean up everything. It was very tiring and I kept on praying! I said, God, please help me. I want to get everything done and I'm really very tired. (And this is the reason why I hate cleaning up) Of course God answered my prayer. Finally, at 10 plus, I'm done with everything! Then I realised I did not have my dinner. Hahahahahaha! And I'm satisfied with myself and the neat and clean room because my effort and hard work has paid off. Then I started thinking to myself, did God did this for a purpose? (Because I had a sudden urge to tidy up my room) So I was thinking, it does apply to my studies. It might be tough right now, but I know at the end of the day, I will be enjoying the fruits of labour!

Today, I went to E!hub to study with Willie and Xiong. I managed to complete my work and I really love studying there! Though it was a bit noisy but I still managed to focus! Yay! :) Hope to study with them more often! :) Okay, I still have some work to do, shall blog soon!

Bye peeps! :)

Xoxo;

I'm happy.

2010-08-08T01:29:00.005+08:00

I've changed. I'll never be the girl who was so naive. Because for what I've gone through, I know how I should be treated and I know I deserve better. Thank you for making me, stronger.

Saturday, the day to be in the house of God. My day was awesome. Bible study was enriching, service was even better. I've really learned alot of things today, and I can really sense the presence of God. He is always there for us. I just wanna pen down my thoughts here. I feel that through today's bible study and service, I think that I really have to change my mindset. What we are thinking, really do affect ourselves. I really have to confess that I do have negative mindsets and now I understand why I'm not doing well for my Mathematics and Physics. It is because I feel that I won't be able to do well. I don't have confidence in myself so I gave up hope. However, it's still not late. I still have about 2 more months before my O's. And God gave me assurance and peace. I know I can do it and I will do well. From today onwards, I'm going to start a fresh and live my life with the fullest! Just two more months to go and I'm done with it!

I'm going to bury myself with my textbooks tomorrow! Or should I say later? :)

Going to catch some sleep now, goodnight :)

P/S; What do you feel about my new blogskin? Hahahahaha, I guess it's time to change!

Xoxo;

I'm Yours

2010-08-06T00:48:00.004+08:00

It's Friday again. Time has really fly passed fast. The first week of August is about to end. This also means that our prelims and O's are drawing near. I really have to work very hard. Extremely hard. I've been failing all the mock exams for Physics and Maths (the 2 subjects I hate the most) and it has been very discouraging for me. However, in the midst of darkness, I found strength and courage to carry on. He gave me the power to continue. His tender voice. What an indescribable feeling. He had never gave up hope on me. So why should I give up on myself? So Lord, I pray that You can give me the strength, the courage, the wisdom, the understanding and the love whenever I'm lost or when I'm struggling. Thank You for being by my side and the peace You have given me. You're great, all the time. And I pray this in Jesus mighty name O' Father. Amen.

After the celebration on Sunday, I finally got my first Hillsong album; A Beautiful Exchange. It was awesome! I love all the praise and worship songs! Now I feel that my power has been renewed. For the next few days, I'm gonna start mugging! Pray for me people! Love you!

And also not forgetting...

My 4 bitches! I just wanna let you guys know that I'll always love you! And you guys make me laugh and smile, filling my weekdays in school fun and meaningful! I'll never forget those days I've spent together with you! Remember our promises for the 5 of us; the 05 of August! ♥

I'll blog soon!

Xoxo;

My House Of God.

2010-08-01T21:02:00.004+08:00

It's has been really long I last blogged, due to busy schedules I have and the bad habit of mine; laziness. Hahahahaha! Well, I'll try to update often when I'm free. First, I just wanna say, a HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY TO CITY HARVEST; MY HOUSE OF GOD. This is my second home :) Though I'm not even 1 year old in Christ, I really enjoy all my days in City Harvest and it's the best church ever in my life. I have learned a lot of things and I've met the best people in my life, N266! :) And of course, our buddy cellgroup! :)

Also, I enjoyed myself on Friday, the FOP. IT'S PLANET SHAKERS CAN YOU BELIEVE IT? And thank God for the seats we were able to sit, we were seated behind the stage and I can see them clearly! OMG! It was total highness and I don't feel like going home!

I would also want to thank God for the quality I've been able to spend with my friends and family! Due to the busyness I have at the period of time, I feel that I've drifted from Him. However, the three services I had on Friday and today, really touches me. I teared because of His love. He's great and good all the time. Though sometimes I might be too tired to pray before I go to bed, I know He's always there for me.

He let me know the true meaning of love. He let me know what friendship really is. He's my strength. He's my Saviour.

Finally coursework B is complete! Time to rush for my essay and then I'll get a good night sleep! I'll blog soon!

Xoxo;

The greatest of all, is love.

2010-07-18T01:08:00.004+08:00

It's has been ages I last blogged. I've been very busy nowadays with school work. O's fnn practical, chinese oral are already over and this coming Tuesday, will be my Chinese listening compre. I really hope that I can do well.

Lots of things has been happening in my life. I guess this is a part of growing up. Meeting people which fill your life with colours. Being blessed by the people right beside you now. What will happen to you without them? Life is like a roller coaster, going up and down. And this is where you learn and cherish things you have.

No matter how happy or how optimistic you are now, I'm sure everyone has experienced those times whereby you really feel like giving up. I do at times, especially this period of time, when you feel pressured and the stress. From the first day of school after the June holidays, I've been doing Mathematics paper one after another. Instead of improving, I saw myself failing paper after paper. The feeling is really sucky.

I hate myself. I questioned myself. I just feel like giving up. I was lost. I did not know what to do. All I did was to fake a smile in front of my friends. Locked myself in my room when I reached home. And just cry, cursing and swearing at myself, scolding myself for being stupid. However, He spoke to me, in a gentle and still voice. He knew I need someone to talk to. He asked someone to talk to me, to cheer me up. He restored me. He renewed me. He gave me the strength. He gave me the motivation. He kept me moving on. He answered my prayer.

Attended today's service, I really felt blessed. No words could describe how much I loved Him. No words could describe how much I yearned for His presence, His love. No words could describe how touched I was, by His love.

I know He love me. He was there for me all the time. He laughed when I laughed. He wept when I wept. He smile when I smile.

Thank You, my Saviour, Lord Jesus.

Never love anyone that can’t love you back.

2010-07-07T20:10:00.003+08:00

I'm feeling so emotional.

This indescribable feeling.

I don't want to have this feeling.

I want my old-self back.

I want to go back to time,

whereby I can still sit beside his arm chair and just watching him silently.

The house is really not the same without him.

I just wanna say,

You're the best Grandpa I ever have. ♥

And thank God, for being there for me. ♥

The man who first loved me;

2010-07-05T18:45:00.007+08:00

This morning, is a beautiful one. Though it wasn't raining, when I opened my eyes, I just feel something different. It wasn't because it's a public holiday for youths. It's because I felt the power of God. I felt God's strength in me. He knew my anxiety. He knew my worries. He was there to comfort me. He was there to strengthen me. He was there to bring me peace in my heart. And there was a sudden urge to pray. It's just amazing and beautiful.

Yesterday, went to watch Toys Story 3 with brother and cousins; JieYi and ShaoWei. Honestly speaking, I was not very interested in that movie even though a lot of people said that it was a great movie. However, it was indeed a great movie! It was funny and touching! Especially the ending and I almost cried. If you haven't catch the movie, you should catch it asap! Ratings: 4/5.

After the movie, went to the Foodcourt for dinner but it was very crowded and there were no seats. In the end, we headed to Simei for dinner instead. Being the eldest, I have to take care of them and it's really not easy! Thank God I have my brother to help me out. Both of my cousins trained back home and my brother and I walked home from Eastpoint. Oh btw, I was Hillsong-ing the whole afternoon yesterday! :)

I really enjoyed my night with him during the walk with my brother. I always enjoyed myself whenever I had him company even though we might quarreled sometimes! Hahahahahah! I remember when I was young, I used to hate him when we quarreled and we'll curse at each other. Looking back to those days, I really cannot imagine what my childhood memories would be like, without him. We used to played toy cars in the living room. We used to play with soft toys in our bedrooms. We used to carry our mattress into each other's bedrooms during the holiday because we wanna play together at night when Mum and Dad. We used to play all sorts of silly games like restaurant, where we will wake up early in the morning just to prepare breakfast. I could still remember I will pretend that I'm the mother and my brother is my son. Hahahaha! So silly! Time really flies. All the things we've played together, are history already. After yesterday, I really thank God for having you as my brother. It was only after yesterday, I really felt that I'm blessed and yet I've never cherish those times I've spent with my brother when I was young. But, I know what to do now already:)

Thank you, Lord :)

This week; Tuesday (tomorrow): GCE O-level, fnn practical exam.

Friday: GCE O-level MT Oral!

Turning point.

2010-07-04T02:55:00.004+08:00

We have to make the right choice in our life as the choice we make today, determines our future.
Look at the time now and I'm still not asleep. Hahahahahah! Well, I don't know why suddenly, I just have the urge to blog. So since the feeling is there, I've decided to blog! Basically, school is really keeping me busy. Very busy. Nevermind, we, students, just have to endure for another 3 and a half more months and we can enjoy our lives for the next 4 months! Hahahhahaa, so cool! :D

Yesterday, after school, headed for cgm.

And today, service and fellowship after service!

I can't wait for next Saturday to come. I'll be celebrating my nephew's first birthday! And next week's service, Mike Connell will be preaching and there will be deliverance! Though I've never heard him preach before, Rena told me that he's good. I'm really excited for next week's service!

Just now, on my way home, this question came to my mind again. What will my life like if I didn't receive Christ? Trick question. Obviously, my life will be very, very different. If I didn't receive Christ, I don't think I'll be able to pull through all the trails I'm going though in life because He gave me strength to carry on. And honestly speaking, God has really add colours in my life. I really thank God for N266. All the laughters and fun we had together, the love and care among each and everyone of us, treating each other as brothers and sisters, encouraging each other when we meet difficulties and so on. I really want to thank God for having this group of people in my life because I can't imagine how I will be like right now, without them. This group of people are not only the people who are in N266 but it includes each and everyone who are in my life. This group of people are just like those stars in the sky. Though we might not see them often in the sky, but you know that the stars are always in the sky, watching over us:) Having all the awesome people in my life, is one of the greatest blessings God has given me. God has use different ways to change us.

The God we love, the God we worship, the God we praise, is a great God.

Going to bed alr.

Goodnight peeps!

Xoxo;

Bye holidays, hi school :(

2010-06-30T21:13:00.003+08:00

Hi peeps! Gonna blog a short post. Well, school has officially started and yes, we have a new timetable and school ends late everyday! Worse still, sometimes school might even end at 6pm! :( Coursework is seriously stressing me up. I've lost all my motivation on fnn coursework. I have not even choose the 5 dishes I wanna cook! I really need to buck up. Seriously. Though I almost break down, I really enjoyed my school life with my bitches in school! I had so many stuff to tell them and I really enjoy myself, sitting together in the canteen to have our meals etc. I really miss them! :) Thank God I have them by my side.

I feel that God has been blessing me each day. Though I have lost all my motivation on my fnn coursework, now I have the confidence to brush up on my Mathematics. And this is what I really want to thank God for. I've received a lot of help for my Mathematics. Although I might not be very 'pro' in this subject, I can really see improvement. Today, after school, stayed back in the library with Amos and Ronald to do Maths! Cool! How I wish I can do that everyday but the new timetable doesn't allow me to do that. :(

Alright, I guess I should stop blogging. Need to do my coursework if not I'll be dead! :( School is really keeping me busy but I have to endure! Hahahahahha! Alright, I'll blog soon, once I'm free:)

Do keep me in prayer. Hee:)

God bless!

Xoxo;

Dear Heavenly Father.

2010-06-27T17:29:00.003+08:00

I felt empty for a moment.

I was lost.

I felt like crying.

For no reason.

I sat down on the floor,

and seek help from my Lord.

And I know, I'll never be the same again.

Out of my hands, into Your heart;

2010-06-25T13:27:00.004+08:00

Hi peeps!

Last night, I had so much fun and laughters with my sisters and mother! Hahahahahaha!

Well, I woke up in the morning, at 9am, by myself!

So surprised that I can actually force myself to wake up.

Went to wash up and everything and then headed to Raffles Place at 11.30am to meet KaiSim.

I wasn't late!:)

We then headed to Mac and ate our lunch.

And she gave me all her soggy fries!:D

So nice right..... ^^

Then, started doing Maths. And we completed Yishun Secondary School Maths Paper 1!

Yay! Hee:)

After that, we wanted to go Starbucks instead because it was abit noisy.

We spent 1 hour just to find a Starbucks in Raffles Place-.-

We did found one outlet but it's full with people.

So, we trained to City Hall and manage to settle ourselves.

Chocolate chips with whipped cream is awesome!

Mocha isn't bad too!

Then, continue to Paper 2.

And both of us started talking.

And we got abit too carried away.

Hahahahahhaaha!

At around 6.30pm, went to the Mrt station to meet Rena and Jasmine.

Rena and I managed 'persuade' KaiSim to join us! :D

So happy!

Then, Yiying came and we went to the food court to have our dinner.

Dinner was nice and the dumplings is really very nice!:D

After dinner, wanted to settle ourselves at Ben and Jerry.

Then we walked rounds and rounds at the basement and then we realised there is no B&J! :(

SO SAD, NO ICE-CREAM!

In the end, we ended up at Starbucks again!

Hahahahahaha!

I'm seriously broke alr.

Hahahahhaha!

Then had match-making session. Haha, it's so funny!

Rena wanted to squeeze my pimple on my elbow for the second time at Starbucks AGAIN. (The first time at Tampines Starbucks on Tuesday)

It's so painful! :(

We left the place at around 11pm.

And when we're at the Mrt station,

Rena hugged me and then she said that I'm very huggable and Jasmine agreed! :D

Reached home at 11:57pm. Hahahahaha, luckily I have bus to reach home! :D

So showered, prayed, do my homework and went to sleep!

And this morning, the weather was so nice!

It was raining!:D

Luckily, my tuition teacher can only give tuition to my brother today.

So my tuition was postponed to tomorrow morning, which means I can get to sleep in this weather! Woots!

Hee:)

So on my lappy after I wake up just to charge my iTouch and later, gonna eat my lunch and continue with my homework:)

I'll blog soon!

Xoxo;

Just so you know;

2010-06-23T19:47:00.004+08:00

Hi peeps!

Today's weather is so cooling and I'm enjoying the weather!

Yesterday, I was feeling abit down.

But I'm alright now!

Met Rena, my mother last night for dinner!

Can't remember when was the last time I spent my quality time with her.

Hee:)

After having our dinner,

We went shopping!

Hmm.. Window shopping for me.

Haha!

After spending 1-2 hours of walking,

We decided to have a drink at Starbucks.

I enjoyed myself last night with her.

And I love making fun of her :P

*Promise her not to say anything! :D

Reached home at around 10 plus.

Tonight, I have to get an early rest because I'm going to study tomorrow!

And I'll be meeting up Rena and co. for a Sisters' Date at Ben and Jerry!

Ice-cream! :D

Shall blog soon!

Xoxo.

I'm surprised that I did not cry. I knew I've grown stronger. Everything happens for a reason. Thank God, for being there with me. Thank God, for answering my prayer.

Dear Grandpa,

2010-06-22T17:25:00.004+08:00

It's the 22nd of the month again.

Imissyoubadly, Grandpa.

9th :)

2010-06-15T17:58:00.005+08:00

I'll blog later if I'm heading out:)

Edited @ 01:23AM.

He's happy, I'm happy, both of us are happy :)

We prayed every night on the phone,

hoping that God will bring the best for us ♥

Hmm.. Tomorrow, I can't go for cell group's chalet. Sad:(

Mum and Dad want me to study.

Time is just flying too fast.

Holidays seem to be ending soon.

I really have to buck on my studies.

Tomorrow, might be meeting up Ica and Twin for lunch and to study.

I hope that I can complete my homework on time.

And I really need to do something on my coursework!

I'm so lazy to do my coursework:(

Argh, coursework really sucks.

Alright, going to bed alr, goodnight peeps!:)

Xoxo;

Dew from Heavens.

2010-06-07T14:11:00.004+08:00

Hi people. It has been long I last blogged.
My 4 weeks June holiday has been shortened to 3 weeks holiday!:(
Have been having extra lessons in school and it really sucks to wake up early in the morning during the holidays to go to school!
Well, I better start blogging on Friday onwards!

Friday; 04June
Headed to the dentist for the monthly check.
And sad to say, I have one decay tooth:(
I hate the 'drilling' and sour feeling on my tooth:(
Because of that tooth, I cannot have sweet stuff:( So sad!
After dental appointment, headed to meet Rena @ Tanah Merah mrt station.
Trained to CityHall to meet the rest of the cellgroup members as we wanted to surprise XiaoYong because he's going NS!
Went window shopping with Rena and there are many beautiful dresses!
Can't remember where we had our dinner, but it was awesome:)
After surprising XiaoYong at where we had our dinner, we went to catch a movie; Marmaduke.
The dogs are so cute and the movie was funny:)
Went home at around 11 plus, I think.

Saturday;05June
Headed to Expo at around 2 plus.
Had bible study with Jolene, Gaius, Germaine and Rena together.
After bible study, went for service and service ended early, at around 7.
Trained to Changi Airport with the rest for fellowship.
Jasmine and I went to the foodcourt to packet food then met the rest at Mac.
As my eye was swollen and I can't eat hard stuff, I couldn't eat Mac:(
I ordered Roasted chicken rice, the man gave me white chicken with bones somemore!
And the chicken is still 'bleeding' -.-
Then JunJie helped me to buy chicken porridge and it tasted like shark fin!:D
And I spent almost 10 bucks on one meal-.-
After most of us finished our meal, headed outside Mac and played Monopoly.
And I was still having my 'dinner'. Lol!
Headed home at around 10 plus cos XiongCheng wasn't feeling well.
So 'accompanied' him and my mum 'praised' me for getting home early. -.-
Oh, and Pyone Pyong is back to Singapore! I miss her so much. Thazin miss me! ♥

Sunday;06June
In the morning, was raining heavily and I prayed hard that the rain would stop because I wanted to go cycling!
My left eye got abit worse:(
Anw, I still went for cycling.
The best thing is, at the very last minute, Germaine, Jonathan and Willie cannot make it. -.-
Lol, so it became the two of us; JunJie and I. Hahahaha!
Met up @ ParisRis Interchange and we walked to the park and managed to rent a bike.
First time cycling @ Paris Ris and I don't really have a good experience there because I knocked onto someone-.-
Anw, East Coast is still better.
Or maybe, far way better.
Because of that man, I don't have the mood to cycle-.-
Returned the bike @ around 5 plus and then made our way to Whitesand to allow JunJie to change.
Trained to Tampines and went to the foodcourt for dinner.
Had Banmian and it was so nice!:)
After dinner, went walking around Tm.
And at Minitoons, someone became a picking up machine! :P
Headed to T1 and then went to the Pet shop.
The hamsters are so cute!:D
But my Tigger is cuter:)
Headed to Mac for Mcflurry! Yay!
Someone allowed me to have ice-cream!:D
Lol, headed home after that:)

I waited for someone's call and that person went to sleep.... Lol!

Monday;07June
Didn't went to school and somebody called me early in the morning @ 6.45AM to wake me up!
Omg, hahahahahaha!
So chatted on the phone for awhile and then went to sleep.
Had a very horrible nightmare and I almost cried:(
Can you imagine dreaming of your father being killed by a tiger?
Lol! Hmm..
Alright, shall blog till here.
Going shopping with Rena once my eye is recovered! ♥
Toddles!:)

XiaoYong, see you in two weeks time!:)

Almost Lover.

2010-05-31T19:01:00.004+08:00

Hi people. Back here, blogging. Well, yesterday, headed to Expo for the very last session of Asia Conference. Went there at around 2 plus and started queueing till 5. Managed to get seats! Praise and Worship was so damn awesome! Omg, everyone was so high! And I almost lost my voice. Hahahaha! But I didn't! And yeah, I didn't bring my camera:( But the most important thing is, the memories created!:) Headed home after the service and reach home at around 9.

Today, was the O-level MT paper. Screw it man! My paper 1 is totally gone case:( I wrote out of point for my essay. Freak man. Nvm, shall retake if I don't get a B3 for Chinese. Oh well, I cried in front of my Chinese teacher:( Argh, don't feel like talking about it alr. Headed to Mac at Siglap with Twin, Ica, Bella and Puteri. Was so moody just now but after having Hot Fudge Sundae, my mood was so much better. Yeah, so we were talking about ............................ HAHAHAHA! Not gonna tell you!* :P

Tomorrow, I still have to go to school. Wednesday, I still have to go to school. Thursday, I still have to go to school. Friday, I still have to go to school. Where are my holidays?:( I can't wait for the third week of June! I can't wait for Saturday! I can't wait for Sunday! :)

Once awhile.

2010-05-28T13:49:00.004+08:00

Hey people!
I know that I'm not been updating my blog and twitter and my blog is like so dead.
Well, lots of things happened this last two weeks.
And our MT intestive program finally end ytd.
Can you imagine doing Chinese and Chinese for the past two weeks in school?
Doing papers after papers,
essay after the other.
It's insane man!
And time really flies fast!
Next Monday, which is coming in 2 more days,
is our MT O-level paper!
So nervous!

Ytd, after school,
rushed to Expo for my first Asia Conference.
Omg, Praise and Worship can make you go high!
Cool and awesome!
Heading there later for night service!
Can't wait!
Last night, after service,
headed to Bedok for lunch + dinner + supper,
at late 11pm.
Hahahahaa!
Then I had to took cab back home as there's no more bus services and it cost me 8 bucks just to get home from Bedok!
Reached home at around 12.30AM.
HAHAHAHAHA!

Alright, need to do some stuff and then will be meeting Rena and co. at Tampines! Will blog soon peeps!:)

The start of something new.

2010-05-16T00:11:00.003+08:00

Hi readers! This post is gotta be a long one. So after reading, if you do have any questions, you may ask me your question though Formspring or tag me on my tagboard. And you can brighten my day!:)

Thursday;13/05
Headed to the mall to meet Rena for dinner! Went to T1 to eat. Then our eating become talking. Hahaha! I was damn hungry because we were supposed to meet up at 6 plus then I think she still has work to do so we met up at 8. We were kinda full. Headed to Cold Storage and we were doing our shopping. Hahaha! After that, accompanied Rena to take bus and I reached home at around 10.

Friday;14/05
No need to attend school! Woke up at around 12 plus. Rena woke up at the same timing! So met her at Tampines and we went to Ikea. Omg, I love Ikea! So cool eh! Had our breakfast + lunch at Ikea! We spent about $20 for that meal! And both of us were so full and I'm still so sick of chicken:( After that, we decided to digest our food by doing our shopping! Omg, I love all the things there! The lamps, the candles, the furnitures, the beds, the chairs and tables, everything! After buying the stuff that we need, headed back to Tampines and went for our pen shopping. By the time we reach Ecp, it's alr 6 plus. So sad, we don't have the time to cycle!:( Nevermind, shall go there during June holidays! Didn't eat alot for the Bbq because I was still very full. But the marshmallows with melted chocolate was very nice!:D Had so much fun there but I was being bullied:( HAHAHA! So, I kept my mouth shut:) Anw, I got home at around 11 plus.

TODAY!; 15/05
Met Fion and headed to Pioneer, all the way to the West of Singapore to support Gauis, Jolene and Willie Elisha Ng as they're having their Water Baptism! P/S; Willie's name is so cool right! :D Though travelling all the way to the west of Singapore is tiring and the weather was super duper hot, I felt that everything is worth. Great experience and I didn't regret going. Hahaha, I feel like having baptise. Hahaha! Shall pray more and I believe I'll have my breakthough with God!:) After that, headed to Expo for service. Service was awesome! Hahaha, I was kinda high. Hehe. God is great and awesome:) After service, went for fellowship and headed home kinda early today. Alright, shall blog again. I'm tired. Hahaha:)

Xoxo.

Everyone is talking about love. But how much do you understand it?

When darkness comes;

2010-05-13T16:45:00.003+08:00

Laugh your heart out. Dance in the rain. Cherish the memories. Ignore the pain.
Love and learn, Forget and forgive. Because remember, You only have one life to
live.

Today's the last paper! Hahaha, so happy now.
After my last paper, it started to rain.
Had lunch in school with Bitch and after that, was laughing and gossiping with each other.
Oh ya, and today, after Chem/Phy paper,
Bitch's piece of chicken 'flew' and landed on my F&N book.
LOL!
Anw, went home and Bitch's mum video call her.
So sweet right?:)
If only Raymond was there!
Hahaha! I miss him so much!
I want to see him walk!
I want to play with him!
HAHAHA!
I'm suppose to pay a visit to Bitch's place,
but I need to go out with my mum:(
Argh!
Bella, allow me to bring Raymond home for once!:(

Home > Shower > Tm with mum.
I was kinda pissed off just now with my mum,
and now, I feel bad.
Sigh* It's my fault and her fault.
HAHAHA!
Oh ya, and yesterday, I got to realise how Mum and Dad worries about me everytime I get home late.
Because last night, my dad went to have a drink with his friends and it's alr 10 plus and he was not home yet.
And it was raining heavily with thunder and lighting.
I was so worried about my dad. And I really understand how my parents feel:(
I feel like I'm a bad daughter:(
I'm always showing my temper to them and though sometimes we might end up quarrelling,
I know that they still love me:)
HAHAHA!

Alright, I'm now waiting Rena to end work and I'll be meeting her for dinner! Right, Mother?:)
Tomorrow, gotta have Bbq @ Ecp with cellgroup! Can't wait! And let's pray that it won't rain tomorrow! Amen!:)

Gone with the wind.

2010-05-12T12:55:00.004+08:00

After such a long time, I decided to have my tagboard back.
I just feel weird without a tagboard in my blog.
HAHAHA.
So, tag people:)
I don't know why I was so moody in school today.
Tomorrow, is the last day.
And I'm done with Mid-year.
I got a feeling that I won't be able to do well this time.
Screw Mathematics, screw Physics.
Tomorrow, I must really do well for F&N.
Yes, with God, nothing is impossible.
And I'm so motivated to practice my Maths during the June holidays.
I just need self-discipline:)
I SHOULD NOT FAIL ANY SUBJECTS FOR O-LEVEL.

Alright, gonna study.
Wish me all the best for my last two papers tmr!
And I can sleep for 10 hours on Thursday night!:)

Last but not least, happy 16th birthday, Amos!:) God bless!

The rainy days.

2010-05-09T19:34:00.004+08:00

The fear of losing the embrace.

Okay, I'm gonna get my post done and back to my revision for tomorrow's paper!
Yesterday was Saturday.
I love all my Saturdays!
Because it means having fun with friends and being able to feel the presence of God:)
Oh well.
Expo > Study > Bible study > Service > Fellowship.
Last evening, the service was awesome and loving.
Hehe:)
Headed to FengShan for fellowship.
Had lots of laughter and fun:)
After that, bused to Bedok inter and Willie, Luther and I decided to walk Germaine home for some reason.
Then, we headed to a nearby bus stop to take a bus to Tampines inter.
And the three of us were sharing our past.
It was so interesting. Haha!
And I really felt alot better after saying out everything in the bottom of my heart.
I can't remember when was the last time I did that.
Hahaha!
Willie then walked with us to our house's bus stop (FYI; Luther and I just stay nearby)
Then Luther headed home first and Willie and I continued talking while waiting for his bus.
Headed home after that.

Today is Mothers' Day!
And I have so much things to thank my Mum:)
I'm so gotta tell her everything before I headed to bed:)
Tuition this morning > Cousins came > Study > Facebook > Dinner > Blogging!
Haha, okay, I really got to do my revision now:)
I have plan what I wanna do on Friday alr!
Or should I say I have plan what I wanna do after Mid-year?
HAHAHA!
Alright, I think I'm changing my blogskin soon.
This Thursday night!:)
Study hard people!

That heart feels so empty. As the rain pours, that heart felt so cold, wondering that the time flies so fast. I realised how much I missed you. I've been thinking how are you doing now. I've been wondering where are you now. The house will never be the same as it was before. I miss your voice. And I'm so afraid that as time flies, I will forget how your voice sound like and it feels like to hold your hand. I miss your smile. I could still remember the first laugh you showed to us and it was the sweetest smile I've ever seen. I felt stupid, to be weeping like a girl whenever I miss you. But still, I just want to say, I love you, Grandpa.

Xoxo.

Endure!

2010-05-07T21:14:00.002+08:00

Hi people! Okay, I've not been blogging for a very long time due to Mid-year examination. Sometimes, I'm wondering if I should just create a new blog or should I just close it. Okay, I better start blogging:)

Nowadays, I've been studying, studying and studying. On Monday; Labour Day, Willie and co. went over to my place to study. And I'm so glad that my Maths paper is already over and I'm so gonna fail the paper esp paper 2! On Wednesday, after my MT paper, I cried. I was so stressed up and I felt that my life was screwed. Thanks to the subject, Maths-.- I'm always weak in that subject but I know I really have to ace for that subject because Maths is an important subject for O's! Crap man!

Well, today, after spending a few hours in school to study, Twin, Bella and Ica went to Mac to grab our McFlurry and we saw this cute little hot guy. Hahaha! He's so playful and all of us seemed to be so obessed with him. Haha! Omg, I should have brought my camera there to take picture with him! HAHAHA!

Finally tomorrow is SATURDAY! It's like finally! Hahaha, gonna study tomorrow and of course, to service! I'm so going to laugh hard tmr!:) Alright, 4 more days; 5 more papers to go! Endure, people! I'll blog often after Mid-year ya!:)

Xoxo♥

Tim McGraw.

2010-04-25T13:52:00.002+08:00

Hi people! It has been a week since the last time I blogged. Well, I've been very busy with schoolwork nowadays. This week, has been an awesome week. I've been staying back after school with Bitch to study. Hahaha. On Tuesday, I ran my 2.4km and I managed to pass! Thanks Ronald and Isabella for the support and the thing which touched the most is, they ran together with me during my second last round♥. Aww.. So sweet. Haha! On Wednesday, I rushed home after school and get myself prepared for Animal Farm! Met up with my love ones and then we headed for dinner then to the National library. Took tons of pictures and it's now all over Facebook:)

On Thursday, I don't know what's wrong with me. I was so moody and I got so frustrated easily. What a lousy day though. However, something good did happened. So, I was back to my usual self:) Hehe! On Friday, went for campfire in school! Everyone was so high and of course, I enjoyed myself:)

Of course not forgetting my wonderful Saturday! Headed to Expo kinda early to study. Then headed for lunch with Rena. Service started at around 5 plus. I was so high! Hahahaha! Headed for the make-up cellgroup at coffee bean after service and we headed to Bedok; LJS for dinner. Took pictures again! Hahaha! So fun! Then bused to Tampines with XiongCheng. Homed>Bathed>Uploaded pictures>Sleep!:)

Alright, I got to study now. I'll try to blog often if possible ya!:)
Xoxo.

12th;

2010-04-17T12:12:00.003+08:00

Lots of things happened this week in school but I could not remember every single thing yeah. Well, there will be some mood swing here and there, but there will always a rainbow after the rain. Laughters in school is the thing I enjoyed the most. Being able to really laugh out loud in school, is the best thing in life. Though we might be feeling a little stress in school due to the work we need to do, I believed that after 191 more days, all of us will be free from all these exams and stuff yeah. No pain, no gain:)

Thursday, I had to make a speech in front of the whole school. That was really freaking me out. And I was suppose to do it with Siti but she was absent for 2 days and she didn't manage to have her script checked. Well, thanks for all my friends who were there for me, wishing me good luck. Oh ya! And also Ronald and the rest who were there with me at the backstage! Love ya!

Yesterday, went to Ngee Ann Poly after school. At first we thought that it's like an open house but it ended up to be a workshop. Had lots of fun and laughter and the best thing is, I managed to know more about the course I wanna get in! Cool eh!:) In the end, we had trouble to go back home because it was raining heavily and we couldn't find our way to the Mrt station. Reached home at around 7 plus.

Going to service later. Hope that everything will be fine. I want to go shopping! Well, I'm going to buy pens later alone. Finally, I can spend my time being alone:)

Oh ya, today's the 17th of April. HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANIL!:)